woohoo! i've passed my triage course!!

theory was crap. all the answers were so similar.. for example

Q. which of the following conditions that may lead to abdominal pain

1) epigastric pain may be cause by hunger
2) epigastric pain may be caused by Acute Myocardial Infact

the answer is actually 2!!

this song got stuck in my head.




我的心中就好像下雨天。暗暗的，在冰冷的雨中等待。会有人为我撑伞吗？

i'm back! haven't been blogging for more than a month!

hahha. been very busy. very very busy..

time really flies. its my 6th month alr, time for confirmation.

i entered ED with the thought of dropping out, transfering back to 18. haha..thou i was quite confident that the NM wouldnt take me in..LOL. pls understand, thru out my 3yrs in nursing, i've only had one collaspe. just ONE! in ED, its a couple in one day. talk about adrenaline, atropine, inatropic, even the most basic intubation also i have problem le. totally ZERO experience. even theory is v vague. hahaha. dilutions are like ????? how? with what? i dun even know the proper usage n pharmacology of GTN. i can't read ECG for goodness sake!

i would praise myself, that i made the effort to learn.
learn frm my seniors.
learn on my own
learn frm mistakes
learn frm scoldings.

i've learnt to be tolerant.
always bearing in mind
[He who is slow to anger is better than the mighty, And he who rules his spirit than he who takes a city. ]
it really isnt easy.
i raised my voice once.
n i realised the consequences
the impression
it was difficult
but i know You will bring me thru
weird as it was
i had the " i will win u guys, one by one, by my sincerity, genuine friendship"
sounds like _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

我好像长大了，思想成熟了许多。不在任性捣蛋，放下倔强的我，步入你所安排的下一步。

hahaha. alrights!

look at my facebook for picture updates ya.

genie left for chicago lo.
i'll really miss this friend plenty.
just meeting up
dining together
chit chatting
sharing about our everyday life
now, its facebook n skype

everyday have been a new experience for me.
the differnt type of patients
the story behind them
somedays
it really gets into me
silly as it sounds
i do hide n my room n cry it out.
it really isnt easy
to see a life pass u by
it really isnt easy.
i will learn to adapt.

joyce, u can do it!

its almost 2weeks since i last blogged! hahaha. too tired to even blog man.

alrights. let's backtrack a little.

5th july.
met up with ping n shell. for a long time. n its initiated by michelle. really enjoyed chilling out man. thou it was almost mad for me to travel all the way to compass after work. suppose to meet at 7. but i reached like 4plus? after work ma. bt ping n shell came down early to meet me, talk about our lives, or rather, how's our work. i'm kinda 庆幸 that i'm in a good working environment. ya la, its true about not trusting everyone, be on guard towards some. but i should say, after that incident, i genuinely feel their concern. esp when Mr Koh offered to let me change shift so i can watch Harry Poter! hahaha.

and then it was a whole string of resus.

11th July.
the singhealth run! i've been saying i will train for it then it became, i will at least "test water" once. but in the end i went there unprepared. hahaha. not bad la. i completed 4.2km in 35min. but Mr Koh is really good! he completed in 25min! n he is in his 50 alr ok. so paiseh. but nvm la. thanks to those who cheered me on. =)
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=90292&id=607830484
then i went to watch ice age 3! who says only kids can watch cartoon! but then, half the cinema were really kids la. but it was a good show. i had a good laugh!!

15th July.
my first outing with dept colleagues. okie la. not really first, cause earlier on alr had lunch with some of them. so, its first birthday celebration! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAOMI! she was like so touched la. Barks cafe is a nice place. anyone wanna go? we really had fun la, everyone was like duper high, n, i'm not a kid ok! i got PINK IC one leh. ahahaha. we were talkin about gg clubbing, like today, then the stupid ricky keep saying i'm a kid. too much man. anyway, thanks to this paramedic who sent us back, i'm realy sorry, i can't rmb ur name. n guess what, 4of us were on morning shift the next day. its crazy.

16th July.
i watch harry potter! ahaah. was a super tiring day. i was still high, teaching the new EN some stuff. then went out with alexis, naomi, and ivy for a while before joinin xingjuan n esther for the movie. ahaha. i think my night blindness is getting worse. i couldnt find my seat. ahahha.. and halfway thru the show, i screamed at one part. i think i was th only one who screamed. hahaha but so dark, noone knows la. should be alright eh. its a nice show! definately worth the money.

17th July.
OMG! it is super tiring. almost half dead. n resus was ULTRA busy. non stop. i only managed to go first break at 1110hrs okie. by the time secomd break at 120hrs. i was sleeping in pantry alr. too tired. went home to catch a short nap. then so 巧. woke up ard 7plus. got feel to go kovan, so sms ping to try my luck. i love it man. when its last min n she can make it. asked mic too, but she M today. so cannot lorx. met up with her ard 2130, chat till almost 0100? so funny to share our experiences. n so 巧 she was telling me, she wanted to sms me to ask if i wanna go kovan, then my sms came. 心有灵系. ahahaha.

18th july.
gonna club tonight!

i dont like to be shouted at.

its finally offday tmr!
i can totally understand how jolyn feels man.
when she has one more M2 before her long awaited offday. bw its her 11th day tmr.

its madness! we're like fighting a war in there.
fight the normal crowd, and the additional H1N1 people.
n how wierd, to see the response of singaporean.
趁火打劫
seriously. i think singaporeans can be more supportive of what we, the fellow singaporeans are doing in tryin to handle n do our best for this impending pandemic.

oh well.

like what NC Choon said,
" don't demoralize one another. if not, this dept wil just collaspe"

it is indeed.
very, very scary to be sitting in the tent city, as a healthcare worker, awaiting for swab results. noone wants to be the first H1N1 victim. esp when we are in N95, like all the time. i mean ALL.
we are getting sore throats n flu-like symptoms because of the mask, not cause of H1N1.

anyway

i can finally go for cg tmr! haven been ard in church
haven been able to go for svc/ bible study the past 3 week?
stuck with work
can't help it.
climbing all the way frm the bottom
but i wouldnt give up
never give up
i wanna make it al the way to the top.
i am moveing, lowly, but surely.
nothing is too difficult for me.
i will win you over, one by one.

taking time out to blog a little.

i realised. i'm NOT THE ONLY ONE who gets emotional during work, i'm not the only one that has soft spots and gets sensitives on certain issues.

6th week into ANE. getting used to the life there, the routine, the workload, the extremes breakhours.

just imagine. lunch at 10am, (if its 7-2.30) dinner at 3pm, (if its 2-9.30). who else has got ths kinda timing??! but then again. i know its tough up there in the ward too. esp now when we are in the mist of H1N1.

with the de-con of TTSH, its gonna get worse. the outdoor extention for suspected H1N1 is ready, in use. being the only hospital in the east, naturally we take in ALL the cases in the east. and north east too.

more work, more ot, more money = no life.

it has been work, work n more work.

i feel comforted when i know people believe my innocence without me having to explain myself. people do have eyes to see. it doesnt bother me even if u dun acknowledge my presence. cause i don't need it. i have what u obviously don't possess. HR skills.

i am tired. how come my off day doesnt seem to come.. =((