Let me hear you call my name.
joyce twenty - one registered nurse and i truly love my job! i love my family and i'm proud to be a chc member, from CJ zone, alice's cg nothing beats living life to its fullest potential More than words.
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You know you love me, too.
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recovering something, to heal something, to feel the pain again....
Sunday, July 09, 2006
time will heal all w0undsactually i already 3/4 thru my entry..and my dear dear nephew went to off the computr..and i cannot recover my post..gotta retype... yeah..no mood to post abt anythin eles..y? yes, its him, xiaozuzhang i admit, i really don share things in depth with him.. reason being.. i don trust him..in fact i don trust anyone..not even myself.. he made me go back into my past..back to the wounds..to nurse that same wound..the one that i have been hiding..the one that i've been avoiding.. and i hate it...it really hurts..it really does.. yes, the H.S had been prompting me..God had been tellin me to nurse that wound..to stop runnin away from it..but i jus dowan to...esp on fri cg..H.S had been prompting mt so hear that i could feel my heart beatin so so hard...and it was further comfirmed when xiaozuzhang prayed fer me... and he knows ir..he knows God had been talkin to me..and of course he tried making me talk...i resfue to...but he was seriously stuborn + persistant...i was left with no choice but to talk.. noone understands the pain..u all may be sayin..why am i always stuck in my past? why can't i jus move on..but why doean't anyone jus stand and put themselves into my shoes and think fer me..think abt my standin..my emotions..can't u all see that the upstage joyce that u guys had been seeing is simply jus puttin on a mask to cover up fer her hurts?for everythin eles? its only when noone is watching, noone is around..then joyce can take down her that mask and come before God, her Heavenly Father and cry her heart out, pour her troubles..everythime w/o fail..He will hold me tight in my embrace..He will say, " my beloved daughter, fear not for Daddy is here..I am here to protect you, to love you..come into My embrace and I will hold you close to My heart, My hand shall protect you, My love unconditional love will be with you forever, in My embrace u will find protection. I wil keep you from harm and hurts, comfort you in times of pain and heart brokenness " i felt like MIA-ing fer prayer meetin..but i still made a choice to go..God had never given up on me..i will never give up on Him...the biggest challenge now is to stop runnin away frm xiaozuzhang..i doubt i can..but.. |
Goodbye.
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