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joyce twenty - one registered nurse and i truly love my job! i love my family and i'm proud to be a chc member, from CJ zone, alice's cg nothing beats living life to its fullest potential More than words.
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Sunday, August 27, 2006
time will heal all w0undsalrites..haven been bloggin fer e past 4 days? or more? partly cuz the connection service fer both my hse com n laptop is gg haywire..connection is like..yikes.. exams are finally over!!! hadbeen chiong-ing vcd the past 2 nights..and will be choig-ing tonight too!! set myself some targets in this six weeks holidays.. - pack my room - pack my clothes - clear my untidy table - watch the 2 vcd i' holdin on my hand now at least twice - watch more vcd s - help out the younger members in their sch work ( sowin what i wanna reap) - work n earn some income - spend time with my cousins - spend more time with ah ma - finish readin the self help books i've just bought - settle things - anger management - go back sacco n teach - finish writin my " a frog's life " - colour therapy - shoppin therapy - meet up with clique - watch some concerts - inner healing - build stronger spiritual n physical health - have enough sleep - be healthier - lose some weight ba - spend more time with my members - meet up with xue - watch movie - holiday - attachment - re paint my room (black) - change blog skin - catch up on my guitar skills - do more visitations the list jus goes on...but that's all for now..haha..next 6 weeks is gonna be living hell for me.haix..but no worries..joy is always smiling.. rites zuzhang? rites nette? fri was a good experience of my mood swing..isn't it?? haha..lol..been feelin tired all the time but cannot sleep well..having constant nightmares..eei!! maybe cuz i used too much of my brain e past 2 weeks..lol...( ping, shell, told u rites! use too much brain wil go crazy de) think i'll go fer medical check up soon..i need assurance that everythin is gg ok...there's a fear...unknown fear..anyone got any idea how scary issit when u dunno when you'll jus blackout? example : sat, i went to teach fer tution..was about to leave my house wheni felt super giddy..sat down n took the medication..than left to take cab..was so much better during the tution...but after when i was walkin out to take cab, i had to told onto the lamp post to stable myself..faster flag cab and took my medication in the cab again.. i used to think that its because i don have enough sleep..that's why i wil black out..but when it becomes so often..i'm afraid..i dunno what is causing that..when i see those G.P, they'll jus say, " rest more n drink more water " that's all! my question is not answered! everytime i don feel ok i'll jus keep quiet n pray that i'll feel better..i'm a future medical worker..i need to set an example! i cannot afford to fall sick al the time!! haix... zuzhang, if u read this, i won run away..i promised to deal with the problems..u never believed i wil have mood swings fer no reasons..rites? to you, its i'm thinkin too much, keep on rehearsin it in my mind...but i don't! i won think abt it fer no reason..but when someone is to mention somethin abt it, it will jus flash like a movie screenin in my head..i dowan to have mood swings too! who would want to be so unstable? i wanna grow up too! and grow out of that stage of mood swings..u maybe thinkin..." than you should talk to me about it " zuzhang, i appreciate ur love, ur concern..when u offer to listen to me..but..i dowan encouragement...i jus want pple to understand me.to understand how i feel..to stand at my point of view...and not advice after advice..i can't take in any advice when i can't that that person understand me! it makes me feel like a teacher tellin the student to study harder when the student is not doing well in her studies because of emotional factors not cause she didn't study..that's why sometimes i chose to keep quiet...like what i told nette...yi jing shang hen lei lei le..zai shou shang ye wu shou wei...... |
Goodbye.
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