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joyce twenty - one registered nurse and i truly love my job! i love my family and i'm proud to be a chc member, from CJ zone, alice's cg nothing beats living life to its fullest potential More than words.
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Tuesday, August 22, 2006
time will heal all w0undsgonna have another paper later..thot of bloggin before i start studyin..not really in the mood to study u see.. wanted to sleep early last night..was really v v tired..went thru all the e lectures on my laptop..so wordy..was tryin to memorise the formulaes for BMI, BEE, and i can't remember the last one..complicated..thot if i cum nursing i can forever no need touch on all these irritating formulaes..but i'm wrong..haix! but i didn't sleep early..was thinkin abt some things..i was lookin back into my past..measurein how far have i come..the things i've achieved, the things i've learnt, the things i've changed..more of me reflect abt my actions.. dr.bernard taught us..actions comes from beliefs, which comes from information that was processed in our mind... so what made my do certain action in life? actions that may nt seems so nice..actions that made me regret? n i realise..many information have been processed in my mind..which becomes into beliefs..but are these beliefs right? are the infomation processed correctly? ytd when everyone came for dinner..big aunty, aunty cindy n i were outside the house..with jun jun playin, waterin the plants..when big aunty n i sat on the stairs and began to talk abt the past..like how when 1 command is made, everyone obeys.. xmp: big aunty : wash hands n prepare for dinner everyone ( all the cousins) will automatically line up n wash hands, get out own bowl of rice n sit by the dining table in our allocated seats... how the times when an outing is organised, everyone will be so excited..noone wil be missing from the outing..now, even a simple family dinner, we can't even gather everyone..not even half the people..even on mama's birthday..not everyone was there.. aunty cindy was saying to me..to learn how to say no to the outside world..when there's a family event, be present..she said, "family is much more impt than anythin out there" and i realise this..family dinner always falls on sat..even if i go down after service i wil still be late..still will tio... but church is impt to me as well..i was reading shell's blog...when she said she found it difficult to strike a balance between family n friends..well... family n friends, family comes first church n friends, church comes first clique n friends, clique comes first aquantence? i won go out unless necessary... but family n church? how? both are my 'families' one thing i am v scared of.. the words frm people ard me..those who i am close to, or u can say, higher expectations..every single word that comes out frm them really mean alot to me..maybe u may jus be jokin..but i take it v seriously..this is bad.. i know u guys jus wanna joke ard..but sometimes those words really hurts..even if i may nt show it on my countenance..but there is a wound inflicted.. u may say i am emotionally sensitive, and i admit i am..joy is jus a human with feelings..i jus wanna protect myself... if i choose to keep quiet..it jus shows hw much hurt u have inflicted... |
Goodbye.
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