Let me hear you call my name.
joyce twenty - one registered nurse and i truly love my job! i love my family and i'm proud to be a chc member, from CJ zone, alice's cg nothing beats living life to its fullest potential More than words.
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Thursday, June 29, 2006
time will heal all w0undsjus came home..tired.. the tone of the class is changin..everyone is starting to be serious..i mean really serious..abt everythin..frm small presentation to major ICA..which equals to stress is increasing..argh.. was suppost to pei b.cj to sylvia's house to do counsellin....but last min it was changed to tml noon..don ask me why..but i did not take notice of my phone, had a missed call from b.cj..ended up fellowshippin with him.. kinda walked around the whole area, town. zara..(zara was in a mess..like war..why? SALE!) than we walked to cine fer dinner..and yes, b.cj blessed me with dinner..lol..had this really long chat with him..than we shopped around..while waitin fer his alice to finish P.M so he can meet her fer dinner...oh ya..its alice's birthday happy birthday alice! then we went centerpoint mac..sat down and talked somemore...this is the first time that he appears like a friend to me..not jus a CGL... to me, b.cj is my cgl and im his member..that's all..there were not any friendship established..and definately, i was not close to him..yeah..i dowan to be in fact..cause i hated him for replacing xin..but maybe what wc said was true.. he's really takin the effort to fellowship, get to know us more, tryin to get involved in out world and not us tryin to get involved into his..and really..i see that effort that he puts in..it made me feel guilty..real guilty..i hate that feelin.. made a decision..i'm gonna treat him nicer..yeah...HA! love =?
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
time will heal all w0undsalrites..wanted to blog abt this afternoon nick was harress by that 1033 cher..yucks...was gross man..ha! .0.jpg) anyway...jus finish bloggin over at cg blog...shared something that i've learnt today.....school jus started and i feel like i need a break already..been feelin v v tired..even thou i may have enough sleep but i'm jus tempted to sleep in class...esp clinical...yeah.. if u know me well enough, i'm nt a person of uncondition love...u need to first make me feel love before i'll love u back..even fer frens..but i've been learnin to love unconditionally...really learnin..let me tell u..its tough..very... shifu msg me [ i really admire the determination you have to love unconditionally..its da** difficult] and its true..kan anyone imagine the sorrow of havin to smile all the time? no matter what happens? the moment u don feel like smiling, BAM! u're showin attitude..like hello? i'm a human too! there are times when i really can't help it.. yes it may be wrong that i show my atitude but i jus can't help it..i'm tryin to change! can't anyone see that?i'm learnin to forgive and forget.i'm learnin to not take things to seriously..i'm learnin to love! the only love that i experience is from God and yuexin! and now that yuexin is no longer part of my everyday life because she's travellin is already one major factor taken away from my life! the only motivation to keep me going on is God! with the capital [L] word..LOVE! its because i've experience love that gave me th capability to love! let me tell u the truth! ever since yuexin left..in my natural realm, there is NO such word as love..it is only thru the love of God that keeps me going on in lovin others unconditionally.. and its drainin...VERY... holy laughter
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
time will heal all w0undsthis is my second tome bloggin today..was reading cg blog n i realised i forgot to blog abt something.. the chalet ( second night) yes, i paiseh myself again..was bathin when the lights went off and so did my screams outside the door was pple singin when my world was in darkness -AH- You spoke ur word night turn into day -AH- yes, it was on purpose mainly cuz i take a little longer to bath than the others..after tt we played heart attack.total joke..followed by game of life..*i finally learnt how!* b.c.j n zieon slept first..and after getting leyon to sleep, oni left nette. alice. me. wc. kt on the bed, toking...can't rmb what we were tokin abt..but i suddenly said, ' wo yao jia ge you qian de yi shen' that sparked the impartation of the 'holy laughter'. wc was doing this super funny action guys, imagine this alrites...a 70+ yrs old old man holdin up a credit card and an old woman comes 'runnin' sayin to her hubby (without teeth) ' i wan credict card' the whole group of us burst into laughter..one after another jokes came up..lots of immitation by wc..and yes, we woke xiaozuzhang up with out laughter..he woke up laughing too! cool rites! then we decided to tone down and sleep..managed to chase the two guys down from the bed askin them to squeeze with the other 3..lol.. wanted to shift zieon inwards when wc saw pull of salivia on the pillow -yikes- in the end xiaozuzhang managed to get leyon moving..he soft of moved but went into o super wierd position.. imagine - head on the pillow, half kneeling, butt pointing up into the sky..something like a mountain managed to get him into proper position when leyon placed his head right behind zieon's butt . and poor zieon got a shock, woke up in horror saying, ' what if i fart right into his face?! ' as expected everyone went on laughing..then finally...we went to sleep..was freezing in the cold thou..hehe.. finally bloggin!
time will heal all w0undsfinally i'm here to blog..lol..was bloggin over at the cg blog fer a few days..apparently i forgot abt my own blog..lol... holidays = no holidays = busier days.. two weeks of holidays is like two weeks of hetic work..wanted to sleep fer at least two whole days..to make up fer the lack of sleep over the past few weeks..but didn't seem to work..haix..was doing even more work.what is this?! but its really enjoyable..restored frenships..cg bonding..getting to know the people around me even more...the only group of people i didn't get to spend time with is my family..to busy outside lerx... i promise i'll make up... alrites..gonna start preparing fer tml's presentation...if nt cannot finish..meetin nette and some other members fer dinner... its only when you learn to treasure the things/people around you.. than you'll know how fortunate you are to have them.. don't wait til you're losing them than u start to cherish them... craziness
Friday, June 23, 2006
time will heal all w0undsalrites..i got my laptop back...can't really blog much now..hehe..no photos to update..had been busy the past 2 weeks..holidays is busier than school days...argh... yeah..wonderin why i'm bloggin at this time? i'm at downtown east mac...lol...summiting something..downtown's wireless is horrible! mus come till mac than ok....argh.... alrites alrites..updae another time..hehe..but here's something...my wall paper..haha...
don be shocked to see your pic..lol.... its all at YOU
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
time will heal all w0undswent out with alice, kt, wc, nette n sylvia today...was an eventful day..but don have the 'feel' to blog abt tt...i wanna blog abt 'HER'..its only when i can bring myself to talk about it that i can get over it.. was talkin to alice ytd...started to talk abt HER..dunno why..but somehow...ended up crying....at first i was tearing..cuz of what alice said..i can really feel her emotions..somehow...somewhat.. we were chatting on msn after we hung up..she really made me face the reality that i miss HER..and i really do..than i dunno what is this..fate or coincidence...the song 'always on mt mind' aka 'hai shi hui xiang ta' ...the ultimate tap was turned on... was sharing with nette on the cab..i didn't had to say the song title...and she knew what song it was..amazing..know why?that is the same song that will remind her of HER whenever she listens to it...and it applies to me... i dowan to look into the past anymore..i'm finally walkin out of that dark alley..no way am i gonna turn back...yes, my pillar of support may not be by my side..but SHE's always on my heart... now that i can loudly say to HER.. ' wo xue hui du li le! bu yong zai wei wo cao xin' outing!
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
time will heal all w0undsfinally went out with jess, mich,genie, ce today! went to meet alice before that..shopped fer her ed hardy jacket that she was eying since ytd and an additional pair of shoes..lol..and..bought things fer some people..lol.. was late in meetin jess they all..haha..went to marina..SOMEONE insisted on watchin this show...yucks...made me scream and lose my xing xiang in the cinema..lol...
haha...bought 4 plus show..went to meet ce..she had to go home early so jus meet her fer a while only...
i seriously look funny..i look blind..haha..ce larx..trying to be funny..hide behind me..had no choice but stay in this position to make sure she doesn't hide..lol.. went fer lunch before that..of course..i had to eat..went to changing appittite..or something..indeed..e food is horrible...only e cheesecake was not bad..lol..haha...me and mich both regreted spending the money on their fish and chips..yucks.. the delicious cheese cakes.. and of course..i ate this...yummy
its really nice...yummy yummy....haha...some pple jus never see cakes before..lol..
didn't buy anything...but we went walking around..and here's the pic..evidence..haha...
haha..so funny lorx...we like playing and playing...its fun man...we need more outing like that!haha..shall post the other pictures the next time..when genie send me the pictures...most of the time is jus mich's picture... -no surprise-
lala
Sunday, June 11, 2006
time will heal all w0undswanted to do photo update..post all e snap shots during emerge n school..but unfortunately my laptop low batt..n being joyce..i'm lazy to take e adapter from my room..lol..using house com..kinda wierd cuz everthing looks so big..lol.. emerge was really good!fantastic! not only the programmes are getting better, the anointing, the Word..everythin is simply awesome! E361..i gotta surprise fer u guys..but u jus gotta wait fer 2 weeks..lol... these past few weeks had been great!it may be physically tiring to be travelling, copin between school and emerge..and more stuff..but these period of time is really happy! restored frenships..results above average..and may other things... esp.. getting to know jess. genie. mich once again..i'm really shocked that they wil tag in my taggy..i'm jus so touched!i once told genie..i never believed in ever lasting friendships..ppl always say frens forever..but how often do friends keep in contact after they have branched out into diffrent insitutions?it really nice and heart warming to know that these are frenships that last long..and i strongly believe..our frenships will last..till we grow old and we shall go fer facials together..lol.. E361 hey guys..thanks fer all ur prayers during this time ya..since i started school, you guys had been giving me the moral strength and encouragements to move on..it had been very stretching.esp when the work load is increasing..but u guys were really there to hold onto me..thank you! esp nette, shan, B.C.J...w/o you guys i'll probably drowned..you guys are awesome! quiz
Saturday, June 03, 2006
time will heal all w0undsfeel like bloggin..but a little seh seh..v tires..so jus post these quiz ba...
How Scary Are You?
What Sign Is Your True Love?
What Age Do You Act?
What Are The Keys To Your Heart? delication to jess
time will heal all w0undsthis entry is delicated to jess jess, i have been wanting to say this to you for a long time..but i never had the courage to do so..even now..i can only delicate this entry to you.. thank you!no other words can express my feelings...i can never imagine where will i be at?what am i doing?what foolish stuff i would have done...i would proberly dropped out halfway or something..thanks for not giving up on me.until the very end..even when i really hated you..showed you attitude..say bad things about you..complained about you..you never once gave up on me..each time i tunble and fall, you will be the one standing by my side supporting me..even when everyone did not believe me, but you still stood on my side and encouraged me... till now, whenever i neet with difficulity, pple u cannot handle, pple whom treat me badly, i would always think of how you have tolerated me with the unconditional love as a sister..this is one thing that money cannot buy, not everyone would receive, and definately the biggest blessin to me! i love you jess! thank you! |
Goodbye.
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haha..super nice man the food..haha..after the movie went shoppin..
