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Wednesday, August 30, 2006
time will heal all w0undsjus finished watchin the 10pm channel u show..haha..sort of rushed hm to watch it..went out with xue jus now..she's stil the same..after nt meetin fer 3 month, knowin each other fer 8 months, i've quite surprised that e feelin stil the same...crazy..haha..were like 2 crazy woman walkin n playin frm ps to heeren to cine... as usual, we went to pastamania..made a fool there..and not surprisingly, xue knocked the cheese container over..stil the same, accident pro..lol.. and shifu, if u're readin this, since when u teng me lorx! i don't agree!! lol..bought a new bag...after shoppin fer so long..cannot stand myself nt buyin anything..lol.. meetin up with clique tml...i miss you guys!! super look forward larx.... i did alot of housework today...let's look at my to do list, what had been done - help out in losta of house work => collect rain water => sweep n mop the floor => clean the windows n the windows grills => scrub the toilet floor - meet up with xue for dinner - read my self help book alrites..gonna do some stuff n catch some sleep..tmr's gonna be a long long day~ Tuesday, August 29, 2006
time will heal all w0undsjus finished watching the 9pm show n 10pm show... went fer dinner jus now with nette, then went over to sylvie's place to fellowship fer a while..wanted to offer tution to denny n emilia..but time nt enough, plus denny wasn't ard..but quite enjoyable watchin the 8pm show together..the s'pore version of "wo bian, wo bian, wo bian bian bian" that was like one of the show i watched the most when i was young..with grandma n big ah yi....miss those times man... than we were tokin abt this topic : nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai why suddenly this topic? cuz i watched er mo zia shen bian..and i fell fer e er mo too! he super super tao rem ai can..u guys should watch it too! haha..n every one sort of agree with that statement..well....(zuzhang, don't be shocked) anyways...here's an update of what i've done frm my to do list - read 2 chapters of one of my self help books - meet up with members fer dinner n fellowship - sleep today is a little slack..felt super tired the whole day..not much energy to do anythin.. well, meetin xue tmr...v long nv c her..hope the dinner turns out well...hehe.. alrites..v tired...time to ZzZzZz... Monday, August 28, 2006
time will heal all w0undshaha..finaly changed my blog skin! yay!! today marks the first day of my official holiday.. from my to do list , i've completed : - finish watchin er mo zia shen bian ( man!i cried like crazy) - packed my clothes - arrange date with xue may pack my table later..see how..tired lehx..chiong the vcd.. holidays le..was so lookin forward to it..but what's the point when everyone eles stil havin exams..haix! also mus wait fer them hols le than can go choing lorx.. chattin with ping online..super lame larx..at least her frens most of them finish exams le can go out..i shalll jus stick to my to do list n complete them.. sian ness...can believe the hols i look forward is actually borin..isn;t it so lame? everytime hols come u yearn for sch..when u gt sch u yearn fer hols..what sia.. meetin xue on we gg back SAC on thurs... back to blog!!
Sunday, August 27, 2006
time will heal all w0undsalrites..haven been bloggin fer e past 4 days? or more? partly cuz the connection service fer both my hse com n laptop is gg haywire..connection is like..yikes.. exams are finally over!!! hadbeen chiong-ing vcd the past 2 nights..and will be choig-ing tonight too!! set myself some targets in this six weeks holidays.. - pack my room - pack my clothes - clear my untidy table - watch the 2 vcd i' holdin on my hand now at least twice - watch more vcd s - help out the younger members in their sch work ( sowin what i wanna reap) - work n earn some income - spend time with my cousins - spend more time with ah ma - finish readin the self help books i've just bought - settle things - anger management - go back sacco n teach - finish writin my " a frog's life " - colour therapy - shoppin therapy - meet up with clique - watch some concerts - inner healing - build stronger spiritual n physical health - have enough sleep - be healthier - lose some weight ba - spend more time with my members - meet up with xue - watch movie - holiday - attachment - re paint my room (black) - change blog skin - catch up on my guitar skills - do more visitations the list jus goes on...but that's all for now..haha..next 6 weeks is gonna be living hell for me.haix..but no worries..joy is always smiling.. rites zuzhang? rites nette? fri was a good experience of my mood swing..isn't it?? haha..lol..been feelin tired all the time but cannot sleep well..having constant nightmares..eei!! maybe cuz i used too much of my brain e past 2 weeks..lol...( ping, shell, told u rites! use too much brain wil go crazy de) think i'll go fer medical check up soon..i need assurance that everythin is gg ok...there's a fear...unknown fear..anyone got any idea how scary issit when u dunno when you'll jus blackout? example : sat, i went to teach fer tution..was about to leave my house wheni felt super giddy..sat down n took the medication..than left to take cab..was so much better during the tution...but after when i was walkin out to take cab, i had to told onto the lamp post to stable myself..faster flag cab and took my medication in the cab again.. i used to think that its because i don have enough sleep..that's why i wil black out..but when it becomes so often..i'm afraid..i dunno what is causing that..when i see those G.P, they'll jus say, " rest more n drink more water " that's all! my question is not answered! everytime i don feel ok i'll jus keep quiet n pray that i'll feel better..i'm a future medical worker..i need to set an example! i cannot afford to fall sick al the time!! haix... zuzhang, if u read this, i won run away..i promised to deal with the problems..u never believed i wil have mood swings fer no reasons..rites? to you, its i'm thinkin too much, keep on rehearsin it in my mind...but i don't! i won think abt it fer no reason..but when someone is to mention somethin abt it, it will jus flash like a movie screenin in my head..i dowan to have mood swings too! who would want to be so unstable? i wanna grow up too! and grow out of that stage of mood swings..u maybe thinkin..." than you should talk to me about it " zuzhang, i appreciate ur love, ur concern..when u offer to listen to me..but..i dowan encouragement...i jus want pple to understand me.to understand how i feel..to stand at my point of view...and not advice after advice..i can't take in any advice when i can't that that person understand me! it makes me feel like a teacher tellin the student to study harder when the student is not doing well in her studies because of emotional factors not cause she didn't study..that's why sometimes i chose to keep quiet...like what i told nette...yi jing shang hen lei lei le..zai shou shang ye wu shou wei...... Tuesday, August 22, 2006
time will heal all w0undsyay! one more paper and i'l be done with my exams!! today's paper wasn't too mad..much more confident than e other papers..much much more confident...40 marks essay questions i used 7 pages..confident sia..1800 sat sat walk out of exam hall...haha.. had terrible headache this morning...thot of catchin some sleep before preparin to go sch fer exam..but couldn't.the pain was horrible..those kind of pain that makes u wanna bang the wall.. lasted all the way even before my exams started..thanx shell fer e panadol.. was doing the mcq..was only at question 14 or 15 when the giddiness set in..i was seriously afraid..i kept drinkin my water..tryin so hard to focus...everythin was like moving n all..wasn't jus drowsiness like ytd..much much worse..but i knew i had to continue n finish my paper.. decided to start praying..that's e smartest and only thing u kan do when u dunno what to do.. while i was doing, thinkin abt the answers, in my heart i was constantly praying..for strength.. God is indeed faithful n good to me..i felt much better after i while..maybe cause the medication began to take effect n all..so could concentrate much better..thank God.. and yes, i've learnt my lesson..never am i gonna burn mid night oil straight for 3 months..and here's an advice to all who constantly lact of sleep.. no matter what..the day before ur exams mus mus mus sleep well..if nt nxt day durin ur paper it'll e like living hell..like how i felt jus nw.. shell, ping, can't imagine how much more similar can we get..haha..most prob we'l click to one another fer e nxt 3 yrs..haha..u all are stuck to me..lol.. mich, yeah..anyways..my exams are finishin soon..i alrd ao finish le..u kan do it too!! prayin fer u..if u ever need pple to pei u burn mid night oil, give me a call, i'll accompany u til mornin..=) time will heal all w0unds gonna have another paper later..thot of bloggin before i start studyin..not really in the mood to study u see.. wanted to sleep early last night..was really v v tired..went thru all the e lectures on my laptop..so wordy..was tryin to memorise the formulaes for BMI, BEE, and i can't remember the last one..complicated..thot if i cum nursing i can forever no need touch on all these irritating formulaes..but i'm wrong..haix! but i didn't sleep early..was thinkin abt some things..i was lookin back into my past..measurein how far have i come..the things i've achieved, the things i've learnt, the things i've changed..more of me reflect abt my actions.. dr.bernard taught us..actions comes from beliefs, which comes from information that was processed in our mind... so what made my do certain action in life? actions that may nt seems so nice..actions that made me regret? n i realise..many information have been processed in my mind..which becomes into beliefs..but are these beliefs right? are the infomation processed correctly? ytd when everyone came for dinner..big aunty, aunty cindy n i were outside the house..with jun jun playin, waterin the plants..when big aunty n i sat on the stairs and began to talk abt the past..like how when 1 command is made, everyone obeys.. xmp: big aunty : wash hands n prepare for dinner everyone ( all the cousins) will automatically line up n wash hands, get out own bowl of rice n sit by the dining table in our allocated seats... how the times when an outing is organised, everyone will be so excited..noone wil be missing from the outing..now, even a simple family dinner, we can't even gather everyone..not even half the people..even on mama's birthday..not everyone was there.. aunty cindy was saying to me..to learn how to say no to the outside world..when there's a family event, be present..she said, "family is much more impt than anythin out there" and i realise this..family dinner always falls on sat..even if i go down after service i wil still be late..still will tio... but church is impt to me as well..i was reading shell's blog...when she said she found it difficult to strike a balance between family n friends..well... family n friends, family comes first church n friends, church comes first clique n friends, clique comes first aquantence? i won go out unless necessary... but family n church? how? both are my 'families' one thing i am v scared of.. the words frm people ard me..those who i am close to, or u can say, higher expectations..every single word that comes out frm them really mean alot to me..maybe u may jus be jokin..but i take it v seriously..this is bad.. i know u guys jus wanna joke ard..but sometimes those words really hurts..even if i may nt show it on my countenance..but there is a wound inflicted.. u may say i am emotionally sensitive, and i admit i am..joy is jus a human with feelings..i jus wanna protect myself... if i choose to keep quiet..it jus shows hw much hurt u have inflicted... HS 1033
Monday, August 21, 2006
time will heal all w0undsjus had my dinner...didn't eat much..no appitite...had HS1033 jus now..super early paper.. had to wake up at 5 to start preparing in order to reach sch at 7.45..now i know how the other people like jess, mar, carys had to wake up so earlt to get to SAC..lol... 70 mcq, 2 structured, total 100marks.. out of 70 mcq..i'm only confident of 27 questions.. shell : wahx..mcq super difficult larx joy : yeah..only confident of 27 q larx..not even half! shell : 27!! i only like know 10 larx! ping : aiya.. jus go by feel lorx..if nt how to do? joy : yeah..the rest also i go by feel de..even for the saq ping : haha..ya larx..aiyo..we always go by feel most of the time also will heng heng pass de larx.. shell : ya larx..the 3 of us always like tt play play also kan pass joy : no comments..jus hope the next 2 papers also kan like that.haha was doin n sleepin at the same time..wasn't feelin too well..drowsy..frm the time i woke up..everythin was lke blurred larx..even when i was studyin in the train..i don even know if anythin went in..was doin the saq...alot ot write..so like write one sub point sleep a while..another sub point..sleep a while.. the gal on my left was frm china, the one on my right think should be singaporean..how do u tell the difference? 0815 china gal sits y her table, start shading her particulars 0827 singaporean gal strolls in 0830 -start of paper- china gal thinks slowly, answearing every question carefully singaporean gal, answers, flips the page v quickly 0900 china gal stil doing mcq singaporean gal writin on writing pad 0915 china gal still doing mcq singaporean gal lifts her hand up, cher walks over, she leaves the exam hall.. can u imagine when she left the exam hall i jus started on my saq...shock she finish so fast..in fact ard 0905 she was already done..jus sit there stone..lol.. came hm n slept fer like4 hours...was v v drowsy...but still didn't sleep well..partly cuz my aunt were all ard..they were gatherin fer tonight's dinner...terrible headache...haix..thank God tmr is afternoon paper...if nt i dunno how am i gonna handle it.. Sunday, August 20, 2006
time will heal all w0undshey hey! joy is here to blog..haha..wanted to write my new story.. entitled [a frog's life] but this com was being reformat..so now like haven finish installin everthing..the story will be mroe interesting with pictures larx..hehe.. joy is blessed with a new book! titled [ happiness is a way of mind, a way of life ] ..thanks zuzhang! left my hse super early today lorx..was studying..yes, joy was studyin in the mornin..can't help it..HS 1033 is a heavy module..alot of info..and its the only module that really requires you to memorise..btw..the module is solely on biology..human biology..bones n cells n ligiaments n all those rubbish to kill.... wanted to leave my hse ard 3pm de..but at 13:10, zuzhang called..ask me to buy gastric medicine fer him..after the call, i went back to study..when i was abt to start writin..i was thinkin..if he call he now mean he now got gastric pain..than if i only leave at 15:00, the earliest i reach is 15:30..than he gotta suffer in pain till then.. u guys know how terrible it is to suffer gastric pain rites... so i decided to quickly bath n leave the house..bring my books to expo to study at foyer 3..i realy tried my best to be quick kays..reached expo at 14:30..wanted to study..no table..in the end studied in the Q..nt v fruitful..only managed to memorise 2 questions..ha.. but its ok larx... hey! countdown to thurs with me ya! after 11am on thurs, joy is free! that marks the end of my exams! yay! shoppin, lunch, medicure, pedicure, haircut, movie, joy is free! kan ask me out lerx..haha..wait! those still havin exams, be good n study..lol! but i think i going fer my holiday ba..most prob next next sun i'll leave..time to relax by myself..gu dan lu xing..haha..no larx..joy jus need sum peace to slow doen..pace myself out well..and think abt somethings carefully..make right choices... never will i wan this to happen...50yrs down the road..i dowan to be tellin myself..."if only i did this," , " if only i did that"..i wan to lead a life of no regrets..noone knows what ia gonna happen the next moment..one simple advice live life the way you want...the way u know you will not regret..one that when u're on ur deathbed, u are able to tel ur children, grandchildren, " i've achieved what i wan in life..i leave wit no regrets " HS 1028~
Saturday, August 19, 2006
time will heal all w0undsjus came back from service..glad i went..it was great..heavy word..but impactful..like.. WOW! ..haha..took a cab frm sch..$14.50..lol..so zuzhang was right about the traffic..that if i take TPE sure no jam n very fast..lol..indeed it was super fast n no jam.. went fer paper in the afternoon..HS1028..lol..this module is last min studyin de..haha..before tt was tellin huiping tt this module more or less like common sense de.but when u look at it carefully, those theories are more than enough to drown you.. but overall it wasn't too bad..managable...was tellin my members.." last 10 marks, comfident arx! " haha..but guess what..the paper is over 100marks..n i walked out even before the time ended..paper suppost to end at 630..6pm i was already out of the exam hall..lol..finish than finish le mahx..so jus leave lorx..haha..i dowan sit in overflow rm larx~ oh..on my way to sch i was studyin on the train..but this family caught my attention.. scenario : mother, xiao mei, jiejie, korkor were on the train..xiao mei was sleepin on mother lap..jiejie n korkor listenin mp3 *next stop : bishan * mother : meimei, qi lai..dao le.. ( wake up, reach le) meimei : - rubs her eyes, continues in half asleep status - korkor : ma~ bu yong jing, wo bei ta lorx ( its ok mother, i piggyback her ) mother : ni ke yi ma? (can u manage? ) korkor : ke yi de larx (yes, i can) so when they reach bishan, the jiejie help the mother to carry the bags n groceries ( i think) and the korkor piggy back the meimei out of the train.. in my heart i was like.." if only i have a korkor like that " can u imagine the love he had for his sister..and that boy the most can only be like..p5 or something..the meimei is about 5 yrs old..can u imagine the love in the family..the willinglyness to serve? the mother didn't even have to ask the korkor to help.he offered his help automatically! and the jiejie too! she helped to carry the groceies, the siblings bag! it may jus be that 2 min when the whole incident happen..but the impression, the love that they were displaying, is deeply felt in my heart..i was touched..so touched..even thou i may not know what is going on in their family, how their family situation is like, but one thing i'm sure..the love they have for one another is true love..love that will not be shaken easily.. that is the love people are seekin for..isn't it? HS 1031..pass? good question~
Thursday, August 17, 2006
time will heal all w0undsalrites..here to blog..before i start studying.. jus came back frm discipleship...to confess...was so tired that i jus write down whatever i can...didn;t really absorb much...v v tired... wanted to tell zuzhang abt my holiday plans...but..haiya..nvm larx..told him i wanna go on sun mornin to fri mornin..but i nv tel him i wanna go alone..ha..guess he'll say i'm crazy... what's wrong with going on a holiday alone..no stress..no burden..no one to nag at u..heaven~ today's paper was...... mich ask if i can pass..i thot for a moments...and answered her.." good question"..and she almost wanted to smack me..lol.. sociology..freak man...mon's paper even worst..HS1033..nitemare lorx tt one...seriously..i pass that..i promise to be loving to everyone i know...i won treat anyone badly..no more small actions.. i'm tired..too tired to blog abt anything..spend the whole of last nite cryin n sobbin..i wonder why~ alrites...need to rest fer a while first..feelin giddy..ha.. rememberance.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
time will heal all w0undshaving paper tml..HS1031, sociology... but i got no mood to study..the stack of papers jus turns me off..i can't seem to contain any into my brain..how i wish i can jus burn those papers, drink it down n tml i'll do well..ha..wishful thinking yeah~ thot of going out for dinner..wanted to meet nette after the b.s..but who knows her b.s last min cancelled..thot of gg fengshan market...but she dowan travel to far...think she's tired too..and i also don really wanna travel..cramps larx...haix..we'll c how then.. i seem to be able to communicate with the cg people better nowadays..there seem to be a link..maybe cuz i' m learnin to control my countenance..lol.. no school fer e past 3 days..suddenly i miss the sch food..the sandwich...lol... i miss my sec sch days..study days are like a privillage..'pon sch w/o havin to get mc' kinda thing..lol..n the days where mich n i wil go parkway lib to study...and she really makes sure i study..we'll try to drag genie, ce, jess along..but v hardly they'll come along...don ask me why..then the coffee frm starbucks, dinner at parkway...studyin till late..i miss those days..those days when we'll sabo one another in class..fool ard..prank call one another in class.. and yes, intensive chinese lessons..it was like intensive fun = picnic lessons..i rmb chen lao shi askin the whole class to read the passage..then me n mich will read in all sort of dialect..tryin to be funny, entertainin ourselves.. math lesson..those who didn't do those exam papers as homework will sit outside the class..than wanying n all will do down n buy food..coke n fries...stil can smile at ms chua when she walks by.. indeed that was the past...i never believed when people tell me sec sch days are the golden years in your school lives..at that point, sch was jus bad..everyone jus wanted to get out of SAC..but now...people are remembering the joy, the fun, the love frm each other in sec sch days... its jus another phrase in life i guess... time passes so fast..its the end of poly yr 1 sem 1..another month i'l be out in attachment..its already amost a year since i'm out of SAC..the past few months..i've really learnt alot of things.frm my workin experiences, life in poly..the change in teachers' attitude..the mindset of poly students..the danger and tension that are constantly felt in class.. it has made joy stronger..less vulnerable...and i'm sure many of you feels the same too..sometimes i'll jus breakdown and cry..i'l ask myself...what are you doing? i miss sec sch days! i dowan to be in poly! i wan back my clique! not sayin that the grp of pple i mix in ch are bad..there are stil some frens that are buddy buddy..but its v little..you'l nv know what the gal sittin next to you is thinkin..one moment she smile at you..the next moment she stabs you.everything is unpredictable.. i've been thinkin abt it..i wanna learn back music..maybe i'll go back to c.c..or join another orchestra..somethin is missin in my life..since exam break for O's..i've nv touched any instrument..that love n passion is missing...it was part of my life..you can kill me but i won let anyone insult c.o..mayb cuz that was what that made me a better person..it changed my attitude..esp with my seniors guiding me...loving me..and my chers being nice to me..to the extend that many pple wil ask me to help them when cher doesn't approve their reason of absence..and it trained my determination..the determination to show the BDS n Maris people that sac gals are not weak..they learn fast too..i rmb going gor co on mon, fri, sat, sun..4 days a week..which later increased to mon, thurs,fri,sat,sun when i took over the leadership role on c.c..and everyday durin the sfy period...the love for c.o had nv fade..i want back the feelin..to express myself thru music..thru the songs i play, the notes i strike.. alrites...joy had been tokin alot of rubbish..u guys mus be wonderin 'when is she gonna finish typing'..and yes..i shall end off here.. wonderful dinner
time will heal all w0unds2nd time i'm bloggin today i think..lol..jus came back frm dinner with my family.. the whole restaurant only got us lorx..but the food was..FANTESTIC...wow... enjoy sia.. shall do some photo update when deb sends me the pic... my cute jun jun was there to..he v cute de..wait a min..its pingjun not any other jun horx..hmm.. lol.. super full now..eat too much i think..lol..no no maybe its we drink too much tea..ha..but we find things to entertain ourselves larx..cuz don really know the other relatives..other than a few that ah ma wil ask me to great n all..and those typical comments frm them..tsk tsk.. i'm like addicted to this song...first by b.kc..esp the chorus..super nice..there's jus this sweet feelin..lol.. zuzhang..read my blog le mus tag lehx..it gets quite scary when u know abt things when i don tell you..like abt the hair cut..so mus tag kays.. nette, no worries..i got faith in myself i won nose bleed..hehe.. deb, doris, photos lehx..n out outin to little india..soon ya..don always wait so long, drag so long... title?
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
time will heal all w0undshaha! joy is here to update...suppost to be studyin..but the addiction to blog kicks in..lol..so here i am! bloggin...lol... had been entertainin some china visitors..going for dinner with them tonight..and THANK GOD they'll be gone tmr..lol..i sound a little mean..but i don realy welcome them into my house..i feel intruded..yet i cannot comment or scold them cuz they're my elders and they are guest..yeah.. went to cut my hair ytd..disaster..should have kept to NK or pointers...should try other places..now my hair is in a mess..jus hope it grows back befor emy attachment..if nt i can't imagine the number of clips i gotta use to keep my hair in place..moreover my hair gotta be bun up.. maybe i should cut my hair short..since now the trend in the cg is to have the same style as zuzhang..rites sisters? lol.. these past few days had been losta prayin n studyin...hey hey..not that i;m facin some major crisis..jus that God is teachin me new things..He's changin my character, mouldin me ba..and i feel the stretch..yeah..~~ was tokin to someone frm CC last night..my ic asked me to counsel her..the funny thing is that she's facin the crisis i used to face... situation 1 : cg multiplication. change in leader. leader change in gender. change in enviroment. loss of comfort zone. haha..was sharin with her some stuff..how i used to hate my leader..think of all sorts of ways to make him angry..make him feel like giving up..i jus wanted to make his life a living hell..lol..the typical joyce..shared with her some things that i'll do.. but i told her..don follow what i did..its wrong..and it really wrong..after you realise you're causin so much oain in that person life..tryin to make up to the person its never endin..you'll never finish 'repayin' you 'debts' towards the person.. talked to her for like 3 over hours..man..that's long.. after that i was thinkin of what i said..i felt silly for the childish mindset i used to have..haha.. i rmb tellin someone..issit u genie? or was it jess? or is it mich? jus someone larx..that i hate my leader..he's not a friend to me..that's jus a leader..leader = leader.nothin much..i will let him know what i think he should know...like my grades, exams dates, i cannot go svc/ cg...nothin more than that... haha..wasn't i silly? hmm..hope he doesn't read this..if nt i can sense my phone ringin..or not i'll see this orange light blinkin at my taskbar..with the icon [ chengjun:)(H)faith!....] haha..opps.. mich : get wel soon my dear! hope u're feelin better jess : hope u received my e mail genie : thanks fer ur little encourage sms! my dearest clique : we'll go out soon ya..promised to bring u guys somewhere fun! huiping, shell : we mus jia you lehx..cannot slack lerx..hehe.. alice : rmb our katong laska dat nxt fri alrites? nette : i'll nv go back to that hair dresses huibo : why are you missing in action again? xin : i miss you.haha..u miss me too rites? zuzhang : i won flood ur e mail..no worries..=) twinkle twinkle
Saturday, August 12, 2006
time will heal all w0undsi'm nt suppost to be bloggin...but i jus got the feel...haha..dunno why..a form of relaxation..super tired now..haven been sleepin the past few days..don ask why... haha..sent sylvia hm jus nw..walked hm with her.. than had to walk backnnand it was quite quiet...nt tt i'm scared of ghost..i'm more afraid of bangas...=x... called nette ask her tok to me..within 5 sec she pass the phone to PJ... and yes i made him sing me a chi song..apparently he doesn;t know how..no worries..after my exams..before my attachment..i'll make sure u learn some..ha..than wc sort of taught him.. wc : follow after me pj: orh... wc : yi shan yi shan pj : yi shan yi shan wc : liang jing jing pj : liang jing jing wc : hao pj : hao wc : xiang pj : xiang and this went ontill the end of the song..and yes, wc taught him the wrong lyrics..dotex.. alrites..joy is v v tired..gonna sleep..dowan to black out n get scolded.. rites nette..rites zuzhang? Friday, August 11, 2006
teenage lifethis song not bad..enjoy ba..the chorus is quite catching..gets stuck in ur mind.lol... what did u learn in school today? that's what the teachers used to day but they don't know don't understand, do they? why do they always give advice saying jus be nice, always think twice when its been a long time since they had a teenage life dwelling on the past, from back when i was young thinkin of my school days and trying to write this song classroom schemes and dreams man they couldn;t save me coz my days were numbered when i signed dowm AVY teenage kicks running out what we could do i still show respect to my boys who made it theu and getting told off Mr T how my life would be then giving him signal so everyone would see sunshine and shade those girls i serenade thinkin og those sixth form chicks that misbehave hoping that those days would go on and on forever everyday something new jus friends running together but suddenly school ends your teenage life gone all ur mates are growing up moving on and now i;m looking back i'll tell u what i know do u listen to ur teacher no i don think so -chorus- now if u treat the kids fine, together thay will shine ooh ooh ooh shine and if u give the kids time, they won do crime won do the crime now my bad old ways were during my school days messing on those grade A's my life is jus a haze i'm going thru the struggle five ten and kicking back so i could lock my flow lace it up now on the track oh yeh i felt the pain whilst chasing all the fame i'm geing told i'm nothing but now i walk tall stand proud for you to see i'm driving these fast cars its 5 stras for me happy national day!
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
time will heal all w0undsHAPPY NATIONAL DAY!! haha..went out to celebrate with kt, zuzhang, nette, hut, hy..went fer lunch than go to settlers cafe..hey guys..that's a nice place to go.. *mich, jess,nie, next time bring u guys go..super fun de..haha..* yeah..had alot of fun playin some game..there's 6 of us..so 4 is mine digger, 3 is like the detective mus blog the other 4 frm reachin the gold..but we dunno anyone's identity.than some even suffered frm identity crisis..lol... yeah..and zuzhang made me surrender my blog password to him..rites zuzhang? -tsk tsk- had been sufferin frm severe mood wrings...it swings so fast that even i myself cannot catch hold of my own emotions..i find it scary at times..when pple ask me..what's wrong with u..i can;t even answer them..not that i dowan to..but even i myself dunno waht is wrong with myself..like that how to answer u guys? so pls pls don keep askin kays..i know u all are concern..jus wait fer my mood to swing back ba..but thank God it doesn't really swing so much is sch..or maybe its cuz my frens have mood swings too..everyone swing together..lol.. yeah...got china relatives at my hse arx..gotta 'zhao dai them' and my exams are round the corner!!argh! how on earth am i gonna finish studying so so so much!!!!!!!! yeah..better stop bloggin and start studin.. uncle..prepare ur coffin..tml shall be ur death anniversary... accountability
Friday, August 04, 2006
time will heal all w0undsytd was a bad day..really had.. was rushing project the whole week..practically frm sun till wed night.. celebrated zuzhang's b'day on sun..photo update? another time larx.. had to do 1028 ICA..some are jus so irresponsible..they jus dunno what is call responsibility..or accountablity.. we were practically rushin project like crazy..even till wed night..late into e night me n ping were still rushin thru the amination and info..the slides and all..next mornin gotta meet at 8 in sch..super early..and the SOME PPLE who gave rubbish slides did not even turn up on time..even during the presentation they also jus read off the projector screen..ARGH! after the presentation, doreen heng was askin the class if anyone got any questions, the strupid auntie n uncle asked so many question..still say my group never do enough research..but joy is cool and calm..i jus smile and him and answered with full sacarism..stare into his face and answer him with a smile..until he was speechless.. let me warn you..be careful during ur presentation next week..i will make sure ur face wil be thrown to the ground..step a few times and burn.i will not let guys trample over my life! went fer discipleship class..met another 2 brothers...tried to keep my calm and my cool..but one thing went wrong, BAM! hit full sacarism+smile..but mainly at chong.. gt scolded by zuzhang..i felt so unfair...didn;t want to tok to him..evem frm the airport walkin down to the bus interchange with him n olivia..i jus listened to my player..than he msg me..at that instance i jus wanted to off my phone and MIA frm him..but i knew i couldn't..accountability..jus one word is enought for me to not do so..jus had to reply him..argh.. hmm..gg fer FOP later...didn;t want to go..but since the devil is so keen on making me fall..the more i should go and praise God..give the devil a tight slap in his face! |
Goodbye.
michdaph huiying nanny raisa genie dewei denny victoria ci en xingjuan |
