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joyce twenty - one registered nurse and i truly love my job! i love my family and i'm proud to be a chc member, from CJ zone, alice's cg nothing beats living life to its fullest potential More than words.
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Saturday, September 30, 2006
time will heal all w0unds think i'll blog one entry now n another after i come back frm svc..ahaha.. mummy bought me a skirt frm roxy..blue coloured skirt..well, she wanted to buy pink, but i reminded her i have 3 pink skirts n she bought blue..lol..hope she buys me more skirts n shirts n clothes..lol.. n pls pay my bills too..=x my hp bills had been on the rise..shal cut down on smses if possible..well, i guess i would..afterall i wouldn't have the time to sms when i'm in the ward..n i dowan to take the risk of being caught by the sister..(thou the preceptor is ms c.c.c) jolin song agn! had been hearin alot of her song on radio...practically is either her or sun lorx... its so hazy outside...and looks like there is gonna be a thunderstorm..=x oh man..i haven done my shoppin fer next sem yet...how~...next sem starts no clothes to wear lorx..mus wrap leaf le larx..=x countin..28 days.. hey clique..if u see this entry..keep the 24th oct ( tue) free alrites...let me know if u can make it..its a ph..vocie out the places u wana go on my taggy...do rmb that poly starts sch on the 16th oct..=) Friday, September 29, 2006
time will heal all w0undsyeah..i know this is the second time i'm bloggin today..don be sick n tired of readin kays...let me blog till i shuang in my remainin 2 days before i start another round of intensive work...=x next fri is zhong chiu jie..and i can't imagine i'm actually doing nite duty! which mean i can't celebrate with cg, neither cani celebrate with my family..=x..well, i jus gotta get used to it..by the time i really enter into this line, i would not even be able to spend cny with my family n frens..its a commitment i made when i decided to enter into this course, so i shouldn't be complainin.. God! U've lead me into this, n i trust in Ur faithfulness, that thru al these commitments, thou i may lose the companion of the pple ard me, but i know You will be here with me, by my side.. jus came back frm cg...cg is great! learnt more abt the 5 love lang..and i feel its really the right msg at the right time..when buildin fund is comin, the cg is growing, there will be pple who will feel left out, n all..thru this msg it can really be a ringin bell to everyone, to start liftin their eyes, look at the pple ard them and show the love of God that has been placed with us..rites? well, here's the 5 love lang..n i find tt it does nt only applies to christians, but to everyone..believe it or not..jus read n observe the pple ard u..=) 1) words of affirmation(encouragement) 2) quality time 3) gift givng ( applies alot to gals) 4) acts of service (helpin one another) 5) physical touch( hugs, ect ect..not fer guys to do to gals..definately NO!) well, what it mean that its ur love lang? when pple do either one of these to u, it makes u feel v loved.. example : physical touch when a fren of urs is to jus hug u..even if that person is to keep quiet, but thru that person's hug, u really feel the love she's giving out to u..that means its ur love lang.. well, that's mine..=) time will heal all w0unds i promise..... i will put in e same effort i put in fer cctm, into the cg... i promise..... God..U promised me..U said all u need was my seed of faith. that was all u need was my seed of faith for U to work with...now i surrender my heart to U..use that seed of faith U have placed within me..Do not haste to help me. for only U can bring me out of this, to the next level, to Ur high calling.. Wednesday, September 27, 2006
time will heal all w0undsBlack Black is the color of authority and power. It is popular in fashion because it makes people appear thinner. It is also stylish and timeless. Black also implies submission. Priests wear black to signify submission to God. Black outfits can also be overpowering, or make the wearer seem aloof or evil. White Brides wear white to symbolize innocence and purity. White reflects light and is considered a summer color. White is popular in decorating and in fashion because it is light, neutral, and goes with everything. Doctors and nurses wear white to imply sterility. Red The most emotionally intense color, red stimulates a faster heartbeat and breathing. It is also the color of love. Red clothing gets noticed and makes the wearer appear heavier. Since it is an extreme color, red clothing might not help people in negotiations or confrontation. pink The most romantic color, pink, is more tranquilizing. Sports teams sometimes paint the locker rooms used by opposing teams bright pink so their opponents will lose energy. Blue The color of the sky and the ocean, blue is one of the most popular colors. It causes the opposite reaction as red. Peaceful, tranquil blue causes the body to produce calming chemicals, so it is often used in bedrooms. Blue can also be cold and depressing. Fashion consultants recommend wearing blue to job interviews because it symbolizes loyalty. People are more productive in blue rooms. Green Currently the most popular decorating color, green symbolizes nature. It is the easiest color on the eye and can improve vision. It is a calming, refreshing color. People waiting to appear on TV sit in "green rooms" to relax. Hospitals often use green because it relaxes patients. Brides in the Middle Ages wore green to symbolize fertility. Dark green is masculine, conservative, and implies wealth. Yellow Cheerful sunny yellow is an attention getter. While it is considered an optimistic color, people lose their tempers more often in yellow rooms, and babies will cry more. It is the most difficult color for the eye to take in, so it can be overpowering if overused. Yellow enhances concentration, hence its use for legal pads. It also speeds metabolism. Purple The color of royalty, purple connotes luxury, wealth, and sophistication. It is also feminine and romantic. However, because it is rare in nature, purple can appear artificial. Brown Solid, reliable brown is the color of earth and is abundant in nature. Light brown implies genuineness while dark brown is similar to wood or leather. Brown can also be sad and wistful. Tuesday, September 26, 2006
time will heal all w0undsjoy is alright..no worries..thanks guys fer ur sms-es...thanks mich..lurve ya lots! finally!my polyclinic days are over..no more reporting at 8am every mornin, tryin hard to remember which rm to report, brk time at 10am, waiting fer e clock to turn to 1pm fer lunch, sleepin durin health education videos, hearing that irritating "ding dong"..ahah..but no more cute doc too!!=( lol.. got 3 days break before i embark on another tough journey..the real tiredness will set in when i enter wards...argh..after what carolyn told me ant my ward..i have my fears...man..its gonna be tough.. talkin abt carolyn..she jus live opp my block! haha..and i jus found out today..well..here's a rather funy incident that occured this aftermoon after duty.. dawn: i gg my bf hse..we take 31 can? joy : orh.. carolyn : can... - 31 comes - carolyn : do u feel that the bus a little unbalance? like one side is tiliting? joy : ??? dawn : yeah..i can tell...very distinct.. caroyln : -LOL- joy : -LOL- dawn : why u two laughing...don't laugh so loud! *reason: we saw this horizontally challenged auntie sitting on the tilted side of the bus..apparently me n carolyn took her weight for the reasonwhy the bus is tiliting * carolyn : we move to the back than tell u dawn : ok.. - so we shifted to the back - dawn : eei! u all so mean! joy : where got mean? carolyn : LOL...joy still laugh so loud.. joy : no lorx..u laugh even louder than me.. dawn : i thot is the uncle pay fer petrol only pay half price..so only half the bus can move properly, the other half is hangin in the air joy : u v creative worx.. carolyn : ya ya..u think everyone like u everythin also mus be half price.. and the best part..i only knew the both of them today..they're frm simei ite de..one is extremely tall, the other is vertically challlenged..trust me..dawn is small..very small sized...wonder how she does positioning n shiftin in wards... actually they were ard since ytd..jus that i didn't get the chance to talk to them..was bz playin with farthin...lol.. children church is comin out with their new album called "first"..pls support..it will be on sales frm this sat onwards... Monday, September 25, 2006
time will heal all w0undscan i say i seriously feel useless? u may think i'm having mood swings but i'm not! stop tellin me u understand how i feel cuz i don feel ur understanding! i know how much i value... i finally know my importance.. yuen lai wo she me dou bu shi.. wo zhi shi ni men shou zhong de wan ou.. pls..if u wanna preach to me, make sure u are able to do yourself if u're unable to do so, u're nt qualified to lecture me, or to instruct me others may say, "u mus learn joyce" but can anyone see my effort? can't u see the effort i'm putting in to lead a normal life? u think its easy to keep smiling? its not! but if i don smile, the whole world thinks i'm having mood swing that i'm nt doing well that i'm showing attitude that i'm going thru depression but i'm nt! i'm a human too... i'm not some angel from heaven that have everlasting joy i'm nt an angel that can rejoice in all things n never feel sad or angry doesn't anyone see that fact? i have the rights to be emotional too! why is it alrites fer everyone to be emotional but nt fer me? why is it people have to comment me like that? u think its easy for me to put down my past? let me tell u its not! stop tellin me to get over my past once n for all and stop dwelling in it u think its easy? try then! try being abandon alone at home with loansharkes banging at ur door whenu're only 5 try going to sch and being laughed at as an unwanted child try being blamed by ur own mother for causing her divorced try being called a jinx in the family try being all alone by urself in the dark night at the age of 6 try being without both ur parents by ur side while u're growing up try coping with al the emotional hurts all by urself try living a life when u don't have parents to be there to praise you, scold you? try living a childhood without birthday celebrations try being locked out of the house for one whole night when u're only 8 try being looked down by others since pri sch try not having ur parents to love u n show u concern try having ur grandparents to blame u fer causin ur parents failed marriage u think its easy fer me? u may say, but its after so many years...shouldn't u get over it? u try going thru them urself.. before you come to me and tell me to get over and done with it n jus move on.. Sunday, September 24, 2006
time will heal all w0undsjus had my dinner..for the past 2 weeks, dinner had been rice with sauce. ..don't like the other dishes... oh man..i gotta be in the polyclinic tmr again!2 more days before i end my polyclinic attachment..take a 3 day rest and i'l have to be in the wards... 3 days of polyclinic attachment is already so tiring..can't imagine being in the ward..God!save me! xin is back..but she'd flyin off on wed..gotta talk to her fer 5 min on sat..even thou its jus 5 min..but it meant alot to me...when sun appeared on stage on sat, i was overwhelmed..turned to hy n sasa and i shouted "yuexin!" cause i know when sun is back, she's back as well...haha..i was so overwhelmed that i was cryin during praise...haha...when sun said she was leaving tonight, i felt as if i was gonna cry again..was rather distracted..until after svc when i ask xin if she's leaving tonight n she comfirmed she's only leaving on wed than i felt peace...haix.. mich, i'm sorry..i know saying how many i'm sorry also no use..like what u said, what is done is done...but i didn't know it wil cause u so much distress..i didn't know i could done so much damage..all i can do is say i'm sorry. i give u my word. i will never do it again. never ever. Saturday, September 23, 2006
time will heal all w0undseveryone is sooooo busy..me too..ahahahaha.. but i made time fer myself..talkin to pple of a higher level..and trust me..they are good advisor.. received this e mail..and i'm really..... I understand how it feel to have someone taken from your life. But trust God that when He allows that He also will bring new people into our lives. Build your relationship around with friends but in the end your relationship with God has to be strong. Learn to help others, when you do that you start to look beyond yourself and grow to become a braver person.. Love is taking a risk and it makes you courageous to share with people and be secure. People may let you down but they can also really helped you. In the end, you become stronger not by closing yourself up but opening up. Of course you start by opening to the right people that you can trust. Sometimes, sharing is not for others to do something but everyone needs a listening ear.. Of course you can talk to God but He also give us friends to help us realise sometimes we are not struggling alone. hey hey...make a guess who this wise person is..ha...i won reveal the answer thou..but i'm really encouraged..somehow.. was feelin moody this mornin..gave nette the wrong attitude when she called me..gonna meet zuzhang earlier later...jus when i wanna have my own space n be alone everyone had to "disturb" me..well, maybe its good...so i wouldn't be thinkin too much on my own..ha.. the stupid polyclinic "ding dong" sound had been ringing in my head..n i'm irritated by that..seriousy irritated..side effect i guess.. sylvia made me this v nice pouch fer putting bible...with an angel on top..  haha..was tellin nette n zuzhang that she gave me an angel... zuzhang : wa..angel arx...~~ joy : of course...wo shi bai yi tian shi lorx.. nette : -ahem- really what...what do u call angels dressed in white...bai yi tianshi right? lol.. alrites..enough of craps..gonna check e rest of my e mail acc before preparing to meet zuzhang... Friday, September 22, 2006
time will heal all w0unds4 days since i last update..wow..my life have been filled with many exciting things the past few days.. started my attachment at the polyclinic.. 1) it was a struggle to wake up so early 2) can't stand the way pple stare at me in the bus * hello! nurses are human too alrite! one day if all e nurses go on strike see if e doc wanna nurse u anot larx! * but i made new friends..ahaha..and met losta exciting cases..like pple pon sch, pon army..ect ect.and definately gross stuff... i assist in one stiching case..wahx..when i see the threat jus poke thru the skin n all the blooog ooze out...i felt my milo comin out too...=x now i'm wonder how am i gonna survive thru in the hospital..proberly take this time to lose some weight..LOL! went fer my supp paper jus now..this time sociology i confident..cause both the essay questions can do..ahaha..should be able to pass..LOL.. met a mentally unsound person on the train, the stupid train had to beak down and was stuck in the tunnel fer like 7 min..thank God it was on the way home not on the way to school..if nt..haix.. met dar dar before my paper..it was co-incident lorx..were tokin at the usual place where i met shell n ping..had a little chat..no details here.. i'm a person of insecurity..isn't it? Monday, September 18, 2006
time will heal all w0undswell..i haven been bloggin fer quite some time i guess..had been v busy..ahahaha...joy is always busy.. the past few sermons pst had been preachin on were all on the inner self..and i hate it when this topic is brought up..trust me..i really hate it...when God wants u to deal something in ur life, try hiding n avoiding..u can never run away from Him..never..both Him n him..ahah..(nette wil know who) inner vows?how many do i have?countless?hmm.. had been busy with sch(supp paper + tutorials)...bio paper was alrite..at least i'm much more confident this time..oh yes, i went fer sociology tutorial..something interesting..clemeus lim gave us 15 question to do after the whole tutorial ended..shell, wani n i were sittin in the first row..so of course we had to "pretend" to read n attempt to answer the questions isn't it? but the thing is that all 15 question me n shell were able to answer..so we told each other jokingly.."i wonder why we failed since we can answer the question"..than clemeus lim said " i wonder too" what sia.. was going back to sch with shell after lunch..than i said my fav "what sia" n "wei~where can like that de~" than she tried to imitate me too..but God knows why she burst out into laughter..she says only i can do so.. maybe that's my talent...ahahahahahahahahahaha weather is changin..cough is killing me..esp in the night..pls pls pray fer me... tmr gg poly clinic fer attachment le..heard frm farhana its super boring..well, let's c how boring it gets...pls don't sabo me n call my phone frm 8am-4pm alrites...anythin sms me, i'll try to get back to u asap.. Wednesday, September 13, 2006
time will heal all w0undsbought many stuff yesterday...c the pics..haha..
jus checked my sem results...i failed 2 module..mus take supp paper..sianx..and the supp paper clashes with my attachment..so i gotta go fer make up attachment..2 sats lorx!! lets's pray hard i pass my supp paper.. the 2 module i hated most HS1033 - bio science HS1031- sociology Sunday, September 10, 2006
time will heal all w0undshaven been bloggin for the past 3 days..hectic week.. had 3 P.M this week..tue is zone de, fri is overnight, sun is combine svc...wahx...... ytd night..after dinner at airport, my eyes closing le lorx..struggling to keep awake..was sleepin in the bus but i was afraid that i'll miss my stop..so every few min i open my eyes n look ard..went home, bath, went to bed..had this scary nightmare..woke up in shock n horror..that was like 6.15am..forget it..jus went to bath than prepare to leave for service... as usual, i was the first to reach..when i had to call the same people who are comin fer service, the same thing happen..suppost to meet at 9am. i call them at 9.05am, they jus woke up. next time, i will reach at 9am, get a seat for MYSELF and those who are puntual and sit in the front. those who comes late, they find their own seat..how many weeks alrd lorx! v tiring arx..by the time this mornin svc i already struggling to concentrate le lorx..super sleepy..nette was like..middle of the svc she nudge me.."u gona slp le arx? c ur handwritin" than i jus smile at her..haha.. went to food expo after that..this time the variety nt as much as the last time lehx..and the food not as nice..hmph..felt so cheated..haha.. had been feelin v hungry the past few days...no mater how much i eat i still feel hungry...that's silly isn't it? sure put on weight de..than cannot fit my uniform how?! noe go tailor also no time le lorx..i need to control~~ haha..was sleepin jus now when i came back..but couldn't really sleep well..as in v easily wake up...like my little nephew jus stood at the my room door, immediately i open my eyes and look..can feel..haha..actual i was kinda wide awake ard 7 plus..but didn't want to go out into the living room... 1) must start greating everyone 2) alot of questions will pop up 3) i dowan to tok to them haha..so i jus stayed in my room until all of them left..in the meanwhile on my laptop n do some admin..lol.. this week i'm gonna concentrate on my to do list..still gt losta things not done yet..and definately to sleep well... Thursday, September 07, 2006
time will heal all w0undshaven been blogging for quite some time... was down with fever frm sun night till tue mornin than i felt better... jus sleep n sleep..didn't have the energy to get to the doctor... thanks zuzhang fer e vitamins ha..indeed what i sow is what i wil reap..(rites nette?) went fer prayer meetin..had this 30min of shoppin with denny..he's so cute!! a little brother that you will want to protect n pinch his cheeks..yeah..he's tt cute alrites.. met zuzhang on wed, he woke me up!! super tired...haha... man..when he says "i'll give u a treat" = you'll have to tell me everything met nette, robin, sylvia, wee chong after that..did some shoppin..bought a shirt fer denny..hope he likes it..haha... was watchin singapore idols on the bus together with sylvia...first time i'm watching tt programme..alrites larx..but that gal can sing..nt bad.. later gt discipleship...but thank God its olivia house..if nt arx......travel til siao.. mich, ur fren a little sot sot..think u need book rm fer him in IMH..$50 per night Saturday, September 02, 2006
time will heal all w0undsalrites.. jus cam back frm svc + fellowship..shall start updating..startin fem thurs ba.. -thurs- had clique outing..finally! haha..went to meet jess fer haircut before tt..than went down to meet the rest.. [sry genie to make u wait so long...=x] yupz..we had lunch n walked ard..there was a feeling..its jus this feelin that makes u feel loved n safe..dun ask me why.yeah...went marina to walk walk..everywhere was so crowded...why? cuz it was half day..eeks..bought plenty of stuff too! thanks ce fer e brownie, thanks genie n mich fer e mr bean bear..super cute..i have been carrying that bear with me wherever i go..hehe..ai bu shi shou..took some pic to show our childlikeness..lol.. mich and all the little tortise..lol..
after that went fer discipleship..at marina..haha..wasn't really attentive..my mind was somewhere eles... -fri- had guitar n cg..learnt more new things..hehe..felt so loved when the members appreciate me..haha...opps..the curry was delicious too..but...went home vomitting the whole night..stomach couldn't really take the coconut milk i guess..maybe cuz fer e past week had been having v bloated n uncomfortable stomach...after the lunch with clique on thurs didn't eat anymore until fri after cg...a little amazing huh..jus felt bloated all the time..went to see 24h clinic..trust me..that doc was half asleep too...yikes! and its super ex..super super ex.. -sat- thank God i was feelin much better today..had lunch at expo..had to force myself to eat so i can take my medicine...but indeed it really works...cuz my appitite opened up aft svc.i finshed the whole plate of xian yu chao fan...was yummy..but i really miss the one at parkway..the one i used to eat whenever i worked night shift..yeah..oh ya...we had quite a few of new friends..one of them is called julia..guess what? we share the same birthday of the same year..haha..shocked sia! hy : my birthday coming joy : me too! 9 days after u julia : oh..19th sept is her birthday? than urs is 28th sept? joy : nope! its oct.. julia : realy?! sure nt?! we share the same birthday?! joy : dun bluff!! both takes out ic... and true enough..both ic printed D.O.B : 28/10/1089 haha..very qiao right? lol..
kays..gonna slp soon..v tired..n drowsy..tmr stil gt svc..nites everyone... _lalaland is callin me_ |
Goodbye.
michdaph huiying nanny raisa genie dewei denny victoria ci en xingjuan |
that's about all...haha..
mich n her future...
clique pics..
haha..all grown up le ba..maybe next time we take such pic will look even moew different...got some pic in jess blog..go her blog c if u wan ba..
she frm tp de..olivia's fren..lol..