Let me hear you call my name.
joyce twenty - one registered nurse and i truly love my job! i love my family and i'm proud to be a chc member, from CJ zone, alice's cg nothing beats living life to its fullest potential More than words.
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Wednesday, October 06, 2010
havent blogged for the longest time ever..its been a long while. like someone i really respect, i wanna lead a open life. esp to my little ones. its rather amusing. while many thinks i'm one of the noisest person around, a random "survey" on the new planner says - 天蝎座 － 她们大概以为大家都用心电感应沟通吧！ to ppl who knows me a little deeper, its probably true. if i can easily tell u something, or complain to u, it obviously does not affect me as much as what that needs to be probe. life havent been good. 都是短暂的幸福.. thank you alice n zz for the jkt trip. i really enjoyed myself. shortly after we touched down, i visited grandma. and there, i bid my final goodbye. 谢谢您的等待.. at that moment, i realised nursing isn't the right path for me.. 勉强是没有幸福的.. now, it is so difficult to even step into the dept.. the same place, but never the same feeling again.. its a loss that i never really coped with.. i did what i did best, to mask up the pain and lead life as normal.. noone suspected, there are even people who came up n said.. "not bad, looks like you are coping very well". sleepless nights, swollen eyes, and times i spent stoning, thinking about the days you would make me bread n milo, days where i'll come home with desserts for you, days where you'll shield me from scoldings, days where we'll be chatting while trying to fall asleep.. 对您的思念不会减少，但我会勇敢... a trip to taiwan.. its suppose to be a holiday trip. but it became a trip where i sorted out my thoughts, cried my heart out. 嬷嬷，放心。我会好好过。对您的思念，悲痛，离去， 我会努力的把它化为美丽的回忆，紧记您的鼓励。。 things will never be the same again. a sudden emptiness that is catching up with me. suddenly there is noone to visit, one to buy medications for, noone to call at night to say goodnight to.. noone to tell me 要喝多一点水，不要教那么多补习. 要吃饭，早点睡. missing you badly. its not gonna be easy, but you will be my motivation to move on.. 最大的遗憾：从没跟您说过，嬷嬷，我爱您。 知道您很希望看到我交到好的男朋友，找到好归缩。对不起，还是来不及。 more changes coming up. cant really say it now thou.. really sensitive here.. i will try to update frequently. maybe by installing blogger on my bb will help? hehe. |
Goodbye.
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