me me me!!

2010-10-28T22:49:00.002+08:00

gave it a final try.

it really seems hopeless..

God, what should i do?
please God, tell me how?

2010-10-24T22:34:00.001+08:00

i'm finding my first Love again..

no more whys..

this time, i'll be silent. only You talk.. and i'll follow.
nothing else.
nothing.

2010-10-18T15:50:00.001+08:00

God did answered my prayers. at least partially..

be grateful, joyce.. be grateful..

2010-10-14T18:39:00.002+08:00

watched eat, pray, love last night with geraldine and wendy..

i need tatuk now..

in desperation.
understanding the story of the boy who cried wolf.

now that i really need you
i really need help
and yet i cant see or find you

is it going to end just like that?

i really need you. God, if really, i can have one present, one wish for my 21st birthday, i wan reconcilation with the both of them. i wan our friendships to be restored. please God..

2010-10-12T23:24:00.003+08:00

it really isnt as easy as what i thought..

remembering what pst used to say in church "don't rehearse it, don't nurse it"

the betrayal i've implicated on you is reflected by ur response to me. these are words that keep coming up into my head.. recalling what pst say. this method seems to help. just close my eyes n tell myself "with God, there is no condemnation, i am believing for restoration. yes, God, i am believing You for restoration"

therapeutic ABG. its still sore and swollen. but it resolved my SOB, and at least, a little more functional today. i think i managed my resus team quite well. God is good, i had a peaceful shift..

lining up programmes to keep myself occupied. its too scary to face an empty room all alone. in times like these, i really wished i still have you to talk to.

i'm praying, believing, nothing is ever too difficult for Him. restoration, reconcilation will come.. it will..

2010-10-11T19:59:00.002+08:00

a lesson that has to be learnt the hard way. perhaps you're right. maybe this is the wake up call from the foolishness of lying to people, esp those who are closest to me, people who loves me..

i am really sorry..

still praying for the day where there can be restoration..

recieved an email from MOE today.. wanted so much to share this good news with you.. but i guess, u need space..

learning to be independent, a change in character, a tree that will bear fruits of repentance.

2010-10-10T17:51:00.003+08:00

today marks the 49th day of grandma's passing on..

didnt sleep last night, couldnt sleep till it was almost dawn.. time really flies.. went through the rituals, visited grandma's urn, ate lunch at where grandma used to love their vegetarian hotplate sambal fish...

now, i have nothing to be concerned about.

being a christian, one of my concern was a grandma that was a devoted buddist.. she used to bring me to temples, made me fold incense papers, burn joss sticks..and i would abide, even after being a christian. but slowly, i stopped going to temple with her, she had to go on her own. even on days when i am free, i would find excuse and not go with her..and i know, grandma is v upset when i reject her.. on certain days, i would still give in..help her to burn joss sticks..

i've never folded as many incense paper as i ever did. until the week of wake when grandma passes on. i kept folding, and folding. a sense of guilt? or just trying to make up? i started to waver.. thought of funny thoughts.. kept thinking that grandma wil be back to visit, she will be back to visit.. and yes, i did dream of grandma.. it is also because of that dream, that gave me the courage, the strength to make a very tough decision..

came back from the rituals, decided to pack my table. and pray.

spent some time reading the bible, which i have not done so for quite some time.. decided to started from the beginning..

came across this verse.

background : it was the chapter where cain murdered abel.

verse 7 "if you do well, will you not be accepted? and if you do not do well, sin lies at the door. and its desire is for you, but you should rule over it"

i've sin, lied to a group of people that i meant alot to me.. it was a foolish mistake, i am truly sorry about it.. but i have broken something called trust, and it is the heartbeat of a relationship. its a lesson learnt, one that is learnt hard.. lying destroys a relationship... no words is able to cover that.. one will only know a tree by its fruits. the only way i can win back their trust is by the fruits a bear - fruits of repentance..

from this day, praying will be a habit once again. no more being lazy.. joyce, be disciplined!!

i'm sorry..

2010-10-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

Needs a little more peace.

I'm sorry.

A tree is judged by its fruits.. I dunno how. I am truly sorry.. I am repenting..

God, give me peace in my heart, hear me.. I need You..

Doesn't feel good to be lying in bed. Trying hard to breathe n rest..

Nothing I can say now
I can only pray.
With my actions.

Restoration..

2010-10-06T22:25:00.003+08:00

havent blogged for the longest time ever..

its been a long while. like someone i really respect, i wanna lead a open life. esp to my little ones.

its rather amusing. while many thinks i'm one of the noisest person around, a random "survey" on the new planner says - 天蝎座－她们大概以为大家都用心电感应沟通吧！

to ppl who knows me a little deeper, its probably true. if i can easily tell u something, or complain to u, it obviously does not affect me as much as what that needs to be probe.

life havent been good. 都是短暂的幸福..

thank you alice n zz for the jkt trip. i really enjoyed myself. shortly after we touched down, i visited grandma. and there, i bid my final goodbye. 谢谢您的等待.. at that moment, i realised nursing isn't the right path for me.. 勉强是没有幸福的.. now, it is so difficult to even step into the dept.. the same place, but never the same feeling again..

its a loss that i never really coped with.. i did what i did best, to mask up the pain and lead life as normal.. noone suspected, there are even people who came up n said.. "not bad, looks like you are coping very well".

sleepless nights, swollen eyes, and times i spent stoning, thinking about the days you would make me bread n milo, days where i'll come home with desserts for you, days where you'll shield me from scoldings, days where we'll be chatting while trying to fall asleep..

对您的思念不会减少，但我会勇敢...

a trip to taiwan..

its suppose to be a holiday trip. but it became a trip where i sorted out my thoughts, cried my heart out.

嬷嬷，放心。我会好好过。对您的思念，悲痛，离去，我会努力的把它化为美丽的回忆，紧记您的鼓励。。

things will never be the same again. a sudden emptiness that is catching up with me. suddenly there is noone to visit, one to buy medications for, noone to call at night to say goodnight to.. noone to tell me 要喝多一点水，不要教那么多补习. 要吃饭，早点睡.

missing you badly. its not gonna be easy, but you will be my motivation to move on..

最大的遗憾：从没跟您说过，嬷嬷，我爱您。知道您很希望看到我交到好的男朋友，找到好归缩。对不起，还是来不及。

more changes coming up. cant really say it now thou.. really sensitive here..

i will try to update frequently. maybe by installing blogger on my bb will help? hehe.

WE WON THE DEBATE!!

2010-08-04T23:48:00.002+08:00

having done all,

WE WON THE SINGHEALTH HEALTH NURSING DEBATE BY 0.7!! kinda unexpected, but it was really a journey. one of maturity, tolerance, and most of all, where we really saw how team work makes a whole lot of difference. and of course, our secret weekly feasting. most of us had problems fitting on our uniform by finals. hahahaha.

and here's our glorious moment.

and of course, FEASTING! thank you bosses (lady in pink - sister tay, our coordinator, lady in black on the right sister avril, our debate trainer ). thank you not just for the treat, but really fighting for us, booking laptops, and always, always giving us the moral support. thank you.

and here's naomi! super surprised to see her at SGH during the nurses day celebration. she was away in TTSH NNI for training thou. really miss spending time, just slacking with her. but it feels super good to see her tummy growing, the little boy "expanding" . cant wait to see him in dec! hehe. thank you for your support, encouragement, even to the very last min before we went on stage. it feels extremely comforting to have a close friend by that moment. sounds childish, but it felt like life n death were at stake. hahahaah

life had been a little more challenging than normal. after the debate i was sick for a few days, on n off, tried to fend it off with like bufen, then proceeded on to ponstan.. then was the brief episode of GE, then the abdo pain, and now, throat infection, right after my first night shift as overall IC. i was in silent mode for 2 days. just nua at home, lie in bed. didnt want to do anything, didnt want to talk. but now that voice is finally back, i can talk again!

its super stressful being overall IC man.. honestly.. i have never walked round the dept so many times in one night before. kept walking round. checking the different areas checklist. see if my obs is alright, enough staff, how's the bed situation, then to triage to see if my triage ic needs help, then to resus to see if they are busy, need me to send staff anot. and also to check stock, see if its sufficient, need to order anot, and on top of that to get all the roll call signed, must know who is on duty and who is not cause audit is this week. and most importantly, MAKE SURE MY STAFF GOES FOR BREAK! quite xiong la..

and now, i'm heading to bed.. haha.. need to really sleep... no more waking up in between hours!

good nights!

2010-07-18T14:23:00.002+08:00

this week is good news after good news!

1) alice's dad's cancer count dropped from 44.3 to 13.3! Praise God!

2) grandma is finally discharging home tomorrow! so proud of you grandma!

3) yuexin is back! woohoo! i missed yuexin plenty!

super tired.. been feeling on off feverish.. which isnt very good.. but its okay. at least i dont have to travel to sgh. punggol seems a little nearer from sgh. hahaha. grandma is gonna be staying at punggol for some time before coming home.. cuase my aunties n uncles all live in that area..

i haven touched much on my book! this is badd.. only like 1/4 of one chapter only. =(

nevertheless. thank God for a good week. despite these, the debate team is officially done with our speaches! this coming wed is the finals at sgh level 9. come support if you're free k? =)

and the girls went for steamboat! well, i was rushing from one venue to another, but its good.

pictures on my fb ya. =)

school has started!

2010-07-13T23:46:00.004+08:00

taking a little time to blog before starting on the string of task i've got to do.

finally collected my reading materials and assignments from SNA yesterday! my goodness. almost fainted at the sight of it.

tell me la. how to finish reading? and when i flipped thru, i realised, its just the basic noted! inside, there are many pages that says. " refer to text book article ....., page .... - ..." gosh. its just the beginning.

oh! my ulu school! its at mande road. its in the middle of lavander and mustafa. somewhere off kitchener road. about 15-20min walk to lavander mrt. if u take a walk there, the only possible groups of people u see are either old ah peks or construction workers, or those hardware shop people. while taking this photo, one ah pek approach me n ask "this place moving ar? what's wrong? how come must take photo ar?" and i just walked away. hahah. the typical me.
advertising on fb works! someone actually replied and here's the textbooks! promised to take good care of them, so i'm gonna buy book wrapper and wrap them up nicely.. hahah. these 2 books are gonna be my best friends for the next 3 months until my exam for this module is over. thanks alexis~

things i need to accomplish
1) source for cheap n good caterer for "smile! its infectious" celebration
2) do up the main poster for "magic phrase"
3) complete the proposition speech n refine the rebuttals
4) start flipping through my notes
6) print out the body anatomy in detail for health assessment
7) start reading the books loaned from alexis
8) add-on to vision board
9) buy birthday gifts for kelvin, rueben, anita
10) give tuition and bs.

that's all for now. hah.

alrights! i'm gonna start doing work n sleep sooooonnnnn.

love makes all things possible

2010-07-11T17:17:00.003+08:00

back to revive my blog!

haven been blogging for a super long time. . been held up with many others..

grandma is diagnoised with CA Caecum.. she's still warded in SGH. very disappointed with the kind of treatment rendered to her.. that's why i'm always around. and i know my presence n words to grandma means alot to her.. love makes all things possible..

bought a scoop of ice-cream from clarke quay for grandma (grandma loves durain!). but it was the peak period, and the ice-cream cup has no cap! love makes all thing possible..i walked as fast as i could, caught the NEL, and walked up to grandma's bed. and the ice-cream barely melted. my legs were cramped after that.. but to see gramdma enjoy that 2 mouthful of ice-cream. its all worth it..

alice's dad is diagnoised with cancer too. alice holds a v special place in my heart. she's like a mommy to me, her family is like mine too. love makes all things possible when i can forgo my sleep to accompany him for chemo, working out my schedual to have time for him and grandma.

praying for their recovery! i know my God is big enough to be their strength n comfort~

and, school is starting!! time table is out alr. so guys, if u wanna date me out, do it on my school days cause its full day school n i'll end school by 4pm! hahahaha.

2010-03-06T03:50:00.002+08:00

havent blogged for about a month.

many things have happened, too much to say.

i know what i'm doing, i have the approval of my supervisors, i have eye witness that are on my side, i am NOT afraid of you.

do what u like, say what u like, cuz in the end, i know, with all my heart

the one on the losing end is surely YOU!

as much as i dun agree with ur actions, i am still trying to protect you if you haven't noticed it yet. if i really wanted to make ur life difficult, i could have done so at the tip of my fingers.

i build my reputation bit by bit. through my attitude, through my work. so is urs, built in the similar way. do a simple analysis. whose words are more creditable?

it was the right time to go on leave. haha. though my phone was ringing frequently during my AL when i was away in phuket. oh yar, and while i was away, some spread that i've applied for ktp hospital to buy over my bond. HAHAHAHAHA! JOKER! and my SNM actually called me when i was in phuket.

SNM : joyce ar, i heard u are gg over to ktp?

me : no ar, sister. since when?

SNM : then how come u went to fill up their application form?

me : no! never..ahahah. i'm bonded leh..

SNM : okays. ur AL u never go anywhere?

me : sister, i'm in phuket now. flying back tonight.

an hour later, i recieved an sms "joyce, can u work night duty tmr night"

and here i am. stuck in obs. but thank God, its well managed tonight. Mr Yeo is good man! and everyone asked "u went phuket? sure anot? how come nt tan??! "

cuz the group that went ku samoi came back burnt. hahaahaha.

pictures of my phuket trip are on my fb. entitled " the underage vacation" cuz we all happened to be turning 21 this yr. our first trip without any legal adults. if u are interested to se the standard of gays in thai. its a good gauge. really..

2010-01-26T23:02:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY HUIPING!

my surprise celebration for her! didnt ask her what she want for birthday, didnt tell her any details about the dinner. only told her to be well dressed, meet at clarke quay. someone was late somemore.. hahah

but i'm glad it went well!

photo updates on my facebook ya. in the album "huiping's birthday! "

2010-01-15T16:14:00.002+08:00

my roster is upside down!! despite doing so many nights, i still haven reached the 80h target..stil got to do m3! =((

its alright..

this week was a colorful week.

dept chalet on monday. hahah. like crazy!! all the true colors appeared.. our consultant steven lim became the DJ of the night, with his v professional equiptments..

then our v own bakir was in his ultra sexy outfit that lighten up the entire atmosphere, even our locum raymond, kuan wee n our very own reg carol were head over heels with him!

everyone was v sporting that night. shots using the medicine cup, even our snm also drank one shot, thou she was high after that on the dance floor. hahaha

me? i helped tingyu with half a glass of i dunno what. (i only know 1/4 is volka 40%, a little of other alcohol) and my face was red. drowned myself with 4pac of green tea after that..

while playing mahjong, jason said " just now u drink until face red, now u lose until face green" thanks ar jason, i will rmb it one. u still have to work with me. hahaha..

then wed was the dept new yr party. invited all the big shots frm upstairs, the orange strip ppl, ADONS, even DON Ms Lee came down.. had so much food so i was nice enough to pack up for xj n esther..

and yes, i was a good girl this week, to have attended cg.. hahah. honestly, i miss being at cg. it feels good to be in cg, even thou i dunno half the ppl there..

videos uploaded in my fb! hope they won kill me. heheh

2010-01-09T13:57:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR~!

its 2010 alr! time really flies.. while everyone was counting down, i was working like crazy in the resus room. it was really v busy that night, even thou there was not a single drunkard. oh wells.

its coming to mid jan alr.. here's some jan update..

celebrated xingjuan's birthday on the 27th dec. it was the long awaited mala steamboat..aha.. followed by movie session. alvin & the chipmunks! im so gonna name my kiddo theodore! he's so adorable!

then genie suddenly pop back! i was screaming in the middle of taka.. oh man, i really missed her! super touched when she allocated one day specially for me, despite all the other people that are tryin to date her out before she flies off for another full yr..

and we celebrated cel's 21st birthday! was a nice dinner @ Grand Copthorne Waterfront. then headed down to zouk to club..cel was super drunk. oh wells...snow white n the 7 dwaft eh? hahahah.. drink more lar. dun complain i nv club with u gals, cuz i just did! i'm nt gonna club the next 3 months..hahaha..wanna be good alr.

the celebration of esther's birthday! @ aloha changi. so hard to get there..cindy was driving, n almost no petrol! 3 of us didnt know the direction. use gps also nv help much..ahaha..we kept gg in circles n circles..had fun talking talking, then heading down to cash studio to sing k until 3am..hahaha... i was clearly awake the whole day man..that was my morning shift..but next day was night shift, so not too bad..got to sleep all back..

and i found this picture! there n then we were all so cute n adorable..young n innocent..now, all grown up, leading our own lives.. looking forward to see my cousins soon again..like a once a yr event, we only see each other during cny.

oh ya! n my nephew dropped his first milk tooth just before the first day of pri 1. hahah.

2009-12-12T14:38:00.005+08:00

its coming to the end of my precious annual leave! =((

learning up the new songs to k!haha. really thankful for good colleagues. colleagues who are fun at play, but serious at work. mid night k session till 3am, last min steamboat supper @liang seah street, having dinner n shopping ard. i'm enjoying life.

perhaps that's what that keep us working together as a team, that's the cgh ed spirit. we work hard, but we play hard too. every dept/ward would always stress the importance of teamwork, but many don't realise, with good teamwork, u need to first have strong bonding. esp in ed, when life and death lies in a matter of seconds, good coordination is very important.

i love my dept. =)

esther, xueleng, joyce, naomi, alexis. - impromt to clubbing session after k

huiting, fazslinda, stacy, joyce, huiping, dawn, naomi, ricky - celebration of my 20th at indochimes, wisma.

xueleng, priscilla, joyce, nashran, skyler, alexis - celebration of priscilla getting into advanced diploma.

standing : calab, xueleng, faslinda, sister neo, alexis. sitting: huiting, joyce, sarah - sending off faslinda, calab and sis neo for mercy relief(padang) *super proud of fas! *

watched part of the charity show, was v touched when liang wen yin sang with the korean little girl. so here's the song.

2009-12-08T15:49:00.002+08:00

its Annual Leave AGAIN!

haha. i'm not so crazy this time, didnt ask to do OT. probably also because of my URTI. cough until my lungs almost came out. reminded me of that pt with severe pneumonia.

thank God i managed to get PH on thurs. cannot imagine if i went to work, probably scare the patients off at tx. and i was suppose to be fever triage on friday night. thankfully NC Choong changed my assignment. but that also mean its 2 nights of resus. its okie.

oh wells. i've gotten new stuffs.

1) 3-door wardrobe (but it still doesnt seem enough. quite full alr. )
2) toshiba laptop (to study. hehe)
3) bb bold (thanks babe!)

sometimes i dun understand. or perhaps, i've never tried to understand. is it our personality, or just purely we joined nursing for different reasons. i'm not perfect, i stil do make mistakes. alot of mistakes. sometimes ask stupid question like "where is the dressing trolley ar" . but patient's lives are never a risk that i will take. rather then what u have been saying, its a stressful event to have joined the dept together with me, i feel more stressful then u are. we don belong to the same side. patients are my priority. are they yours?

stop pushing the blame. why don't you first self evaluate urself.

2009-11-08T20:28:00.002+08:00

havent blogged for a long time,
although its my AL.

hahha.

1)i've gotten my confirmation letter! thanks guys, really appreciate all ur help n guidence. i an be a little blur lar, but u guys have great patience in helping me out and teaching me patiently(sometimes only!)

2)yes, ive stepped into the realm of 20. the third decade of my life. life's gonna get better and better. like chengjun says, my days wil get brighter and brighter.

thanks to those who made an effort to spend this special day with me. thank for the present guys. thank you for making the effort to come down after work to accompany me. and of course ping n shell, thanks for the dinner and the gifts.

and for those who havent, repent! hahaha. i am still celebrating birthday, all the way till december. haha.

2009-09-30T20:45:00.004+08:00

woohoo! i've passed my triage course!!

theory was crap. all the answers were so similar.. for example

Q. which of the following conditions that may lead to abdominal pain

1) epigastric pain may be cause by hunger
2) epigastric pain may be caused by Acute Myocardial Infact

the answer is actually 2!!

this song got stuck in my head.

我的心中就好像下雨天。暗暗的，在冰冷的雨中等待。会有人为我撑伞吗？

2009-09-25T23:38:00.002+08:00

i'm back! haven't been blogging for more than a month!

hahha. been very busy. very very busy..

time really flies. its my 6th month alr, time for confirmation.

i entered ED with the thought of dropping out, transfering back to 18. haha..thou i was quite confident that the NM wouldnt take me in..LOL. pls understand, thru out my 3yrs in nursing, i've only had one collaspe. just ONE! in ED, its a couple in one day. talk about adrenaline, atropine, inatropic, even the most basic intubation also i have problem le. totally ZERO experience. even theory is v vague. hahaha. dilutions are like ????? how? with what? i dun even know the proper usage n pharmacology of GTN. i can't read ECG for goodness sake!

i would praise myself, that i made the effort to learn.
learn frm my seniors.
learn on my own
learn frm mistakes
learn frm scoldings.

i've learnt to be tolerant.
always bearing in mind
[He who is slow to anger is better than the mighty, And he who rules his spirit than he who takes a city. ]
it really isnt easy.
i raised my voice once.
n i realised the consequences
the impression
it was difficult
but i know You will bring me thru
weird as it was
i had the " i will win u guys, one by one, by my sincerity, genuine friendship"
sounds like _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

我好像长大了，思想成熟了许多。不在任性捣蛋，放下倔强的我，步入你所安排的下一步。

hahaha. alrights!

look at my facebook for picture updates ya.

genie left for chicago lo.
i'll really miss this friend plenty.
just meeting up
dining together
chit chatting
sharing about our everyday life
now, its facebook n skype

everyday have been a new experience for me.
the differnt type of patients
the story behind them
somedays
it really gets into me
silly as it sounds
i do hide n my room n cry it out.
it really isnt easy
to see a life pass u by
it really isnt easy.
i will learn to adapt.

joyce, u can do it!

2009-07-18T11:42:00.002+08:00

its almost 2weeks since i last blogged! hahaha. too tired to even blog man.

alrights. let's backtrack a little.

5th july.
met up with ping n shell. for a long time. n its initiated by michelle. really enjoyed chilling out man. thou it was almost mad for me to travel all the way to compass after work. suppose to meet at 7. but i reached like 4plus? after work ma. bt ping n shell came down early to meet me, talk about our lives, or rather, how's our work. i'm kinda 庆幸 that i'm in a good working environment. ya la, its true about not trusting everyone, be on guard towards some. but i should say, after that incident, i genuinely feel their concern. esp when Mr Koh offered to let me change shift so i can watch Harry Poter! hahaha.

and then it was a whole string of resus.

11th July.
the singhealth run! i've been saying i will train for it then it became, i will at least "test water" once. but in the end i went there unprepared. hahaha. not bad la. i completed 4.2km in 35min. but Mr Koh is really good! he completed in 25min! n he is in his 50 alr ok. so paiseh. but nvm la. thanks to those who cheered me on. =)
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=90292&id=607830484
then i went to watch ice age 3! who says only kids can watch cartoon! but then, half the cinema were really kids la. but it was a good show. i had a good laugh!!

15th July.
my first outing with dept colleagues. okie la. not really first, cause earlier on alr had lunch with some of them. so, its first birthday celebration! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAOMI! she was like so touched la. Barks cafe is a nice place. anyone wanna go? we really had fun la, everyone was like duper high, n, i'm not a kid ok! i got PINK IC one leh. ahahaha. we were talkin about gg clubbing, like today, then the stupid ricky keep saying i'm a kid. too much man. anyway, thanks to this paramedic who sent us back, i'm realy sorry, i can't rmb ur name. n guess what, 4of us were on morning shift the next day. its crazy.

16th July.
i watch harry potter! ahaah. was a super tiring day. i was still high, teaching the new EN some stuff. then went out with alexis, naomi, and ivy for a while before joinin xingjuan n esther for the movie. ahaha. i think my night blindness is getting worse. i couldnt find my seat. ahahha.. and halfway thru the show, i screamed at one part. i think i was th only one who screamed. hahaha but so dark, noone knows la. should be alright eh. its a nice show! definately worth the money.

17th July.
OMG! it is super tiring. almost half dead. n resus was ULTRA busy. non stop. i only managed to go first break at 1110hrs okie. by the time secomd break at 120hrs. i was sleeping in pantry alr. too tired. went home to catch a short nap. then so 巧. woke up ard 7plus. got feel to go kovan, so sms ping to try my luck. i love it man. when its last min n she can make it. asked mic too, but she M today. so cannot lorx. met up with her ard 2130, chat till almost 0100? so funny to share our experiences. n so 巧 she was telling me, she wanted to sms me to ask if i wanna go kovan, then my sms came. 心有灵系. ahahaha.

18th july.
gonna club tonight!

2009-07-04T22:43:00.001+08:00

i dont like to be shouted at.

2009-07-02T20:49:00.002+08:00

its finally offday tmr!
i can totally understand how jolyn feels man.
when she has one more M2 before her long awaited offday. bw its her 11th day tmr.

its madness! we're like fighting a war in there.
fight the normal crowd, and the additional H1N1 people.
n how wierd, to see the response of singaporean.
趁火打劫
seriously. i think singaporeans can be more supportive of what we, the fellow singaporeans are doing in tryin to handle n do our best for this impending pandemic.

oh well.

like what NC Choon said,
" don't demoralize one another. if not, this dept wil just collaspe"

it is indeed.
very, very scary to be sitting in the tent city, as a healthcare worker, awaiting for swab results. noone wants to be the first H1N1 victim. esp when we are in N95, like all the time. i mean ALL.
we are getting sore throats n flu-like symptoms because of the mask, not cause of H1N1.

anyway

i can finally go for cg tmr! haven been ard in church
haven been able to go for svc/ bible study the past 3 week?
stuck with work
can't help it.
climbing all the way frm the bottom
but i wouldnt give up
never give up
i wanna make it al the way to the top.
i am moveing, lowly, but surely.
nothing is too difficult for me.
i will win you over, one by one.

2009-06-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

taking time out to blog a little.

i realised. i'm NOT THE ONLY ONE who gets emotional during work, i'm not the only one that has soft spots and gets sensitives on certain issues.

6th week into ANE. getting used to the life there, the routine, the workload, the extremes breakhours.

just imagine. lunch at 10am, (if its 7-2.30) dinner at 3pm, (if its 2-9.30). who else has got ths kinda timing??! but then again. i know its tough up there in the ward too. esp now when we are in the mist of H1N1.

with the de-con of TTSH, its gonna get worse. the outdoor extention for suspected H1N1 is ready, in use. being the only hospital in the east, naturally we take in ALL the cases in the east. and north east too.

more work, more ot, more money = no life.

it has been work, work n more work.

i feel comforted when i know people believe my innocence without me having to explain myself. people do have eyes to see. it doesnt bother me even if u dun acknowledge my presence. cause i don't need it. i have what u obviously don't possess. HR skills.

i am tired. how come my off day doesnt seem to come.. =((

2009-06-14T00:07:00.002+08:00

alrights. its the end of week 5 in ED.

starting my M, A shifts next week, no more D! yay!! worth the celebration man. but at the same time, its time to start training up man. Mr Koh registered me to rn 5.4 cross country! sian. and M.M is not running! =((

then again. can't blame her.

good n bad. ED had been alright so far other than that one episode this week that made me broke down. quite bad la. i really, tolerated, swallowed my tears into my stomach, until sister finished talkin, i walked back to OBS n started tearing at one corner. good thing, ppl do care. happen that the people there at that time were all the seniors, n thank God for favour. they really cared for me, feel the injustice n fought for me to work with the seniors rather than with her. to me, i dowan to mention about it, n i chose not to tell anyone about it. its only when they asked that i said. but news spead fast man. i was on D that day, the following mornin when i came, like half the ED knows about it. ppl come to show concern, asked if i'm alright. i think i made the right decision in controlling my temper. because i chose to control my temper, n let it go, it reflected well on myself, n it reflected even worse on her.

its so interesting how i meet familier people!

like wendy, like shazana, they are my seniors! same sec sch! n we ended up being colleagues. n, making friends with doctors are right! i no longer have to see GP to get meds for my migraine, just ask the MO to autograph for me! hahaha. opps.

and yes, that wierdo.

haiya, for goodness sake. if u are really interested in me, come up to tell me n ask for my number personally. don go round askin my seniors to help u when i don even know which one is you. don expect me to stare at nametag n find out who u are. i don have the time n mood to do so, because my patient's life is more impt than finding out who u are. alrights? =)

i've been eating lesser. n lesser. partially work related. haix. even matt says i need to eat more! gonna discipline myself to at least drink milo before M shift! my eating hours are wierd la. lunch at 10am, dinner at 4pm. how seh. neither here nor there. n im sick of the hosp food. sometimes i wish someone would just deliver me home cooked food. =(( just simple porriage with egg also can.

2009-06-01T19:27:00.002+08:00

its 3 weeks into ANE. this is the 4th.

2 more weeks of day shift. i hate day shift. takes up my entire day! functioning better, faster. getting a hang of it. in an environment like that. i am FORCED to be a fast learner. picking up things quickly, moving faster, being more sensitive in my hearing, more vigillant about changes. and of course, learning more drugs than ever before.

some are nice, some just teach in a tougher way. politics, i'll stay out of it. doctors, some talk rubbish all the time, some treat u lik eone of them (caus they are new n often need ur help too! ) yet some, are just training me to be a better person, person of more tolerance in a tougher manner.

the toughest thing for me? death. emotionally, it gets a little too overwhelming, esp when the deceased is a loved one of someone i know. like today. its one of my fellow cohort colleague's uncle, and also my ex-classmate's dad.

another thing. working with people that doesnt respect this profession. i guessed many were shocked at my outburst. esp the SSNs. they thought i will never raise my voice! then again, to them, i'm a soft spoken, person of not many words. i have no idea why. i think NC Mayuree felt my frustration. she took her on one-to-one tution that afternoon. teach her how to do basics and at least familarize her a little more. that was the day the SSNs were looking at me, smiling smiling n then burst out into laughter. even the senior consultant got a shock, he peeped in.

tolerance. i need to have more tolerance.

aiming for confirmation within 3months. its comin to the end of the first month. almost completing the orientation checklist. i wonder if she started on it alr. the only thing i noticed is she's v v enthuestic n concerned about keying in her temperature everyday. ahahaha.

2009-06-01T18:56:00.003+08:00

graduation updates!

HUIPING AND ME!

my buddy for 3yrs! ahaha. the one the never fails to psycho me to buy things! yeah, n the one that will 带头. very often, of the 3, she's the one that leads. i really enjoy working with u la. you always know what i wan in projects! haha. chill out at ur "fav place" soon k?

MICHELLE AND ME!

michelle! the one that updates me with the latest 偶像剧 and songs! we really had much fun together in poly. of the 3, i guess she's the fastest in following up on taiwanese entertainment! really enjoyed the late night supper at ur hse downstairs, and having steamboat at ur place! =)

NI YUAN AND ME!

ah yuan! the only person i've met since kindergarden that shares the same surename as me exactly the same somemore. ahah.. but we're qite different la. she's quieter in character, unlike me. ahahah! but she's a good fun to be with! rmb our 单身贵族!

CI EN AND ME!

i miss working with u la! ci en has been my attachment buddy since yr one leh. only got closer to her when i celebrated her birthday. i have no idea why i agreed to join in the celebration bt i'm glad i did! i'll never forget how you got locked in ut hse n we actualy chit chat at ur gate, with u inside n me outside! and of course, the days at IMH! i still see rabbit around. crap.

XINGJUAN AND ME!

only really talked to her during the ANE posting, cause we 2 one team ma. dun talk to her then v bored alr. never thought we can click. ahah. she has a wierd group of friends. #1 wierdo :shawn. that one is extreme. i will always remember u eating 大包 in the lecture hall. and forever playing mahjong even thou its AM the next day! i will visit u in WD 48 often! ahaha.

ESTHER AND ME!

another one that attachment since yr one. but hardly same shift. surprised that we will go taiwan together, n the wierd habits u have. like only taking 15seconds to go toilet. and the "i dunno why i wil fall down" seriously, accident prone one. this is 名副其是, a classic example of 人小小，力气非凡!

ZHENCHAI AND ME!

ah chai! guess because he's one of the 2 guys in the entire changi cohort. famous seh. but i won deny, he is good in his work. but another one, full of rubbish. super funny one. 辛苦你了, always kena bullied by us. haahaha. but i would say. he's a good guy. one of those i see that wil volunteer to help the girls, even to buy food, willingly.

CHENGJUN, ALICE AND ME!

thank you for coming. you've seen me through my 3yrs in polytechnic, always encouraging me to strive for better grades. always praying for me during examination period. the next 3yrs wil be better than this!

and of course, SHEENA! we belonged to different graduation sessions. wanted to take picture with u, but u left so early! sheena is my best buddy at work! sinc eyr one, always same shift, same ward. even to same team. we have incrediable 默契 at work. to the extend our patients collaspe at the same time! let's have another round of "korean drama syndrome" date soon k? i'll visit u often in MICU.

2009-05-18T20:59:00.002+08:00

just thinkin.

someone told NC, she wants to change dept.
that someone said, i am too competitive.
am i?

ok lar. i'll be honest.
i feel she's too slow
too blur
too unsure of her work.
it makes me wonder, how on earth did she pass PRCP.
but, that's not up to me to decide.

i happen to be a little more sure about my work.
thou comments given to me is, "joyce, u are to quiet"
( thou i think noone here agrees! )
but comes to work, n the care to my patient.
i feel i am rendering them my best.

i'm a little shocked to hear that.
NC asked me to be more patient.
after all she is not used to the environment here,
she have only been in this hosp for PRCP, n now.
i don even talk to her.
we're posted to different areas everyday, hardly meet unless one of the NC wanna talk to us

容忍。耐心。包容。

i wanna thank my 外婆 (阿妈)

谢谢你从小就教我方言。在这一行，能多懂一个语言就是一种优势。尤其是少数年轻人会说的方言。但，我拥有了这个优势。能够与公公婆婆们有效的勾通，成为了我独特的特征。

明明之中，就好像已经有人为我安排了一切。从小时候的语言发展，到对医学产生兴趣，成绩烂到不知道可以进哪间学校，O' 水准１７分的奇迹，挨三年的大专，最后步入社会，成为一位护士。

突然觉得人的生命就如一本小说。作者是创造者（我所信仰的天神），小说的主角是我。

我还是相信，我回幸福的。一定要幸福。

2009-05-17T18:43:00.002+08:00

first week of A&E.

haha..
like what eugene says, "u are adapting to the A&E style ar, everythin also quick quick fast fast. "

cause i've completed half of my competency checklist alr. hahaha

what to do.
in observation ma.
got alot of chance o do such things.
PLENTY! i feel like a vampire. hahaha..sucking people's blood.
opps. maybe i really am one.

guess what?
NC Koh said i am quiet! very quiet! hahaahhaa..
thou i think alot of people will potest.
wait till i do triage.
my voice will ring until qi ji.
hahha..

quite an eventful week.
am v tired.
went for massage n had a good sleep in the afternoon.

met up with ping n michelle last night (FINALLY! )
slack at kovan.
ah ping's favourite place. haha
slacking ia a good activity to do when u need to destress.

A&E isnt exactly the best place to pass out in.
there are more SSN than SN.
even the NC warns us about politics.
how fantestic.

我以经尝试解开你对我的不满。
我尽力了，道歉了。
接下来的，就看你自己了。

2009-05-13T21:16:00.002+08:00

好累，好疲倦!
就连回家的路途都显得非常遥远。

this is only week1 day 2. =(
was in obs the whole day.
what's wrong with people nowadays.
A&E had been super super super duper packed.
i'm going mad. thou got entitlement to break, like 30min.
but then again, have to leave some time to gown up n de gown,
hello? full PPE!
and thinkin of the busy situation out there
haix. forget it la.
nvm, its a "paid for- slimming program"
be positive!!

u have an expectation to live up to!!!!

oh! i did my first cannulation today,
a bit scared
shivered
but

成功了!!!!!

msg eugene to tell him. i think he was excited for me too! hahaha.. i have tons of competency checklist to do. =(( but nvm.

i am determined to excel in this field. i will survive thru
meeting nice n not-so-nice people.
i guess its part n parcel of life.
i will remain neutral.
i will be humble.
i will learn.

have a good attitude. =)

ping, kovan this week? =p

2009-05-12T21:19:00.002+08:00

好累噢!!

first day reporting back to A&E officially. and again,
wrong timing!!
today A&E was super, ultra filled to the brim.
until must open up OT to overflow for Obs cases.

send pt up,
come down.
wearing the N95 mask
soon, the marking wil be on my cheeks. =(
its itchy n not comfortable.
maybe should wear kimberly clarke tmr.
that should feel more comfy.

battling a massive headache
dizzy spells.
is it the lack of sleep?
or lack of water?
i have no idea.
almost fell asleep during briefing. when i sat right infront of Sr. elaine.
=(

2009-05-10T22:10:00.003+08:00

why is everyone getting married, or attached.

haha. reminds me of what happened ytd.

was walkin to t3 foodcourt with the kids. then walked past swatch. i was saying i wanna buy watch! then..

yuda : get a boyfriend la. then he will buy for u, u no need buy urself leh.

me : i also wan, bt dun have leh.

yuda : lower ur expectations lar..

me : lowered alr. but still dun have.

yuda : not low enough. lower somemore.

me : huh... .... ... ....

yuda : i know! ask God!

how smart. and came this crazy guy.
dunno safe anot to say here.
ppl interested, sms me ba.
i have free unlinited smses.
hahaha..

spent the day at home.
being a good girl.
happy with the things i bought for mommy. (thank you ping)

been reading blogs.
realised its the season when ppl are changing
friends are getting attached
finding their other half
we're entering into the society
成人混乱的世界
people are feeling the change.
so am i. 我长大了
realizing that the world is not a perfect place
no longer being protected
i have to learn to survive on my own
the mean, the evil, the scheming, the backstabbing
learnin to 闪

joyce, u will make it thru.
be positive!!

2009-05-08T23:20:00.002+08:00

its friday! its alr week 4 of the orientation. the training centre has became my second home. i think i spend like half my time there everyday.

coming out frm poly
a change of uniform overnight from a student nurse to staff nurse
brought about excitement, and fear.

yet under the care of AgNE Eugene, NE Xu Ping, SCI Sarah, the training centre became a protected place.
we were still like students
hanging ard
playing ard, singing n dancing during breaks
doing the kinda things a typical student would be doing during lectures
we were sheltered by them
就像温室里的小花

and now, again
overnight there will be a change of uniform.
for a few of us, its frm uniform to scrubs
a new responsibility
a new environment
a new chapter of our lives begins here.

was chatting to SCI Sarah
about uniforms n attire, appearance n all.
she shared her past with me
her experiences
n she said this

" u can still choose to "rebel", have ur hair colored n bright streats, short skirt, tight uniform, refuse to bun ur hair. have colored hair to look pretty, when u can have black hair n still look pretty. but end of the day, when it comes to promotion n ur chance is overlooked because of your appearance, personal grooming. don sulk when u don get it. because u are the one who chose it"

hwa. revelation seh.
惶然大悟
i dowan to be an ah lian.
i want the promotion.
both she n eugene are the best example.
it took them 5 yrs
to then again change their white uniform to blue
i want 7yrs
to change from white to blue then to white again with the orange stripe.

this is my goal.

2009-05-05T22:13:00.002+08:00

okie. decided to blog. 一肚子气!

just saw uncle's phone bill.
cause i'm the one paying
it matters ALOT to me.

the line is meant for grandma to contact him.
not for u to misuse it.
in the first place, if u dun even acknowledge us as ur family
你冯什么要我们牵就你?!
pls rmb who is the one who is taking advantage here?
u think what?
grandma n 三叔 is your money tree issit?
dont think i am kept in the dark.
just don let that day come
where i really 忍无可忍
我不会再留言面
i will 闹上门
到时后不要怪我不给面子，
要不是看在三叔的份上，
我早就凳门"拜访"！

i think if those few see my post
esther sure shout "阿莲"!
oh. whatever.
hahaha..
习惯就好.

another long day tmr.
looking forward to thurs.
hope it comes faster.
i feel deprived alr.

missing something....

2009-05-04T19:39:00.002+08:00

ORANGE ALERT!

don't say that singaporeans are still in a slack mode. just by looking at the price of the masks, i am shocked!

went to pharmacy to get vit.C and for esther n xingjuan to get somethin for their throats, then we saw the soaring prices of the masks!

kimberly clarke. equavilient to the N95 respiratory mask thatwas commonly used during SARS. its selling at per packet of , $15!!

normal surgical mask. NORMAL ok. it is selling at per pac of 50, $16!!

my goodness..and people do buy them ok! can't believe it. then again, looking at the situation out there. probably its a good kinda measure to take. even i bought ribena sweets to chew. haha..can't wait for pay to come. we're all anticipating man.. still thinking.. "how should i cut my hair? " ahaha.. any suggessions??

2009-05-03T16:05:00.002+08:00

being good girl and stay home today!
downloading handsome suit to watch.hahaha..a bit slow thou..

thurs

celebrated sheena's birthday.

happy 21st birthday sheena!!

i never knew i can have so much fun with them man. hahaha..

so,

nurses do have a life too!!
ultra entertained seh by the live prawns n the blur n stupid comments each other made.
the "stun" faces n expressions.
sheea's driving is dangerous!

i think xingjuan's one is worse.
we were at simei, gg down the stairs, i dunno why
simei is her 地盘 and yet she can fall!!
she almost la. good i was standing infront of her.
she managed to grab me.
but she still sprain her ankle.
walked her to her place, she laugh all the way non stop leh.
suppose to be in pain but she seems to be v entertained by her own stun.

went out to meet ping last night.
ultra last min
but like that than ons ma.
last min jio also can make it.

slack at kovan hk cafe. sat there n slack til about 3 plus ar..
started to rain super heavily at 2..
so bo bian just sit there chit chat lor.
we paid the person 21 金币
the person's face was like "stun"
congrats! ping got her job at HPB.
so ppl, she will be doing health screening for ur kids! hahahaa..

i enjoy man.
this kinda slacking.
just spending time talking, chilling out with one another.
sharing the funny things that happen
doesnt mean start work le cannot have this kinda life.

moreover, jus grad, then meet with pandemic,
alr v 衰 le. don make it worse.
come on nurses, get a life!
don be restricted by the stupid shift works n what not.
give urself a break!

this is just the beginning for many of us.

未来的路还远的很

2009-05-01T21:31:00.002+08:00

i passed my IVAM! but that's theory la..i passed one our of the 4 skills alr. left 3 more skills not assessed yet.

Due to INFLUENZA A- H1N1, also known as swine flu, mask fitting takes place in the auditorium everyday! we have no place but to sit at the foyer. tat also means there's lesser venues to set up exam stations. that's why its super slow.

we're into orange alert now. preparing to go into red alert soon.

orange alert means

Healthcare Institutions

Temperature screening and screening for flu like symptoms for visitors to clinical care areas would be implemented

Hospital staff are required to don PPE in all areas with patient contact

The number of visitors would also be restricted to one visitor per patient. This will help facilitate contact tracing and will reduce potential exposure of the Influenza A (H1N1-2009) virus.

and here's something for all of you

Practise good personal hygiene and be socially responsible by:
▪ Washing your hands regularly and thoroughly with soap and water, especially before touching your eyes, nose or mouth.

▪ Turning quickly away from anyone near you if you are about to cough or sneeze, and do not cough or sneeze at him.

▪ Covering your nose and mouth with a tissue when coughing or sneezing. Dispose of the tissue properly in the dust bin after use.

▪ Avoiding crowded places if you are unwell and wear a surgical mask to cover your nose and mouth.

▪ Staying home from work or school when you are sick.

▪ Using a serving spoon when sharing food at meal times.

▪ Seeing your family doctor if you are feeling unwell.
Also, leading a healthy lifestyle helps to build up your immunity and protects you against infection.

▪ Eat a balanced diet, including plenty of fruit and vegetables.

▪ Be active. Do 30 minutes of physical activity at least 5 days a week.

▪ Learn to relax and have enough sleep and rest.

▪ Do not smoke.

2009-04-28T20:02:00.003+08:00

i am tired!

yestersay's lessons was mad. running from one venue to another, one room to the other. assessments, presentations. so bad that i was talking rubbish during the presentation, but i think i entertained them alot. wahahaha..my 强项 leh!

today is an entire day of IVAM. it has been years since i had to memorize formulaes, problem solving. machiam like those problem sums in school la. 把我们这几个都难倒了! and it was running monkeys n donkeys outside...like crazily heavy thunderstorm..like that esther said. 就像我们的心情，晴天劈力! !

it is alot alot alot alot to study. we're all now on yellow alert. double the stress...

policies, protocols, pharmacology,pharmacokinetics, pharmacodynamics. all the "P"s.

i wil never name my kid starting with P!

feel like sleeping now..but its only 8pm! i havent studies yet..=((

2009-04-26T16:54:00.003+08:00

i am finally done with multicultural project!! not exactly done, but at least i've finished preparing the slides, printing them out now..

i am duper tired man...last week was like crazy. this coming is even worse.

last week :

mon - BCLS practical exam

tue - normal lectures..

wed -IV cannulation / venepuncture practice session

thurs - BCLS theory paper

fri - Cannulation / Venepuncture assessment

this coming :

mon - Multicultural Healthcare Presentation

tue - Intravenous Adminstration of Medicines theory lessons

wed - Intravenous Adminstration of Medicines Practical exam

thurs - Intravenous Aminstration of Medicine theory exam

fri - PUBLIC HOLIDAY!!

IVAM will drive me nuts!!

and.

i've finally got my perfume! hahaha..

nice eh? ahahah..

再大的暴风雨也会有雨过天晴的时侯

我会一直撑下去直道那一天的到来

我可以吗？

2009-04-06T23:58:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

collected my uniform today..suddenly my 10weeks of holidays seems so fast! in less than 6days, i will be known as sn joyce. not student nurse joyce. =(

praying for a good dept.
God, don play me out at this moment. pls.

celebrated many birthdays this month, or rather, more to come..at the end of the month, i'll post all the birthdays..n u guys will really understand.

but nvm. this yr, i really wanna do the best i can for the people ard me. =) so i'm really trying.
work is starting, i wanna manage my time well. make time for the people around me.

sorry meimei, u always cannot find me, i always cannot make it to meet u. =X i promise to make time for u n c u thru ur o'levels k..=) thank you for the little little things. =)

2009-03-15T14:41:00.001+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

personality test : the clothes you wear.

What others see from your style

You probably live in your own little world and studiously avoid having to search for your own identity. You may feel that you are not loved, and being in your imaginary world is your way of coping with this. You get moody easily.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You are a caring people. You are romantic, witty, and easygoing. You compromise rather than confront, and love nature.

What others see from your belts

You don't like to show your feelings. Normally, you are gentle and friendly, but you don't like socializing. It can be difficult to get to know you well, and you probably only have a few close friends.

What others see from your shoes

You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

What others see from your earrings

You are probably a free spirit at heart with artistic talent. You are absolutely unique and are always coming up with lots of great ideas. Being happy is your most important goal.

The last analysis

You are probably a romantic and passionate person. You are sensitive and lonely when you aren't in love. You can be somewhat self-centered, but you are honest and sincere to others. You like to make a good impression of yourself and worry about what others think of you.

2009-03-14T00:12:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

i got this off someone's blog...

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 3

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 7

Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 10

Level 5
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 13

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 14

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
( ) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 17

Level 8
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding (offroading)
( ) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 20

Level 9
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 24

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 26

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 29

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
(x) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 32

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 34

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 38

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
( ) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 41

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 46

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made a Prank Phone Call
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 49

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 52

Level 19
(x) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 55

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 57

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 60

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 63

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House.
( ) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 64

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
(x) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 66

Level 26
(x) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 69

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 72

Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
(x) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
(x) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(x) Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 78

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
(x) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 82

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
( ) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 85

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
(x) Flattened someones tyres
( ) Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

I've done 86 out of 132 stupid things.
that's 65.1%!!

opps. i found it funny while reading her blog. then again, when i copied over to do it myself, now i know the amount of stupid things i've done!!!!

2009-03-11T23:05:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

its getting closer n closer to apr.

on the 31st march,
-i'll no longer be listed as a student
-my student pass will expire
-my ez link expires too
-i'l be 13days away frm being a staff nurse
-i'll be registered under SNB
-i'll be a working adult
-i'll no longer wear the blue n white NYP uniform.
-there's noone for me to depend on n run to alr.
-greater responsibility for myself, and the people ard me
-i am scared.

2009-03-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

yay! i've finished watching 黑糖瑪奇朵. addicted to this song, yes, the song u are hearing now. its called苦茶, by hei she hui mei mei n bang bang tang.

微微笑的看你越是认真就越让人心疼
街头那盏路灯仿佛在笑我愚笨
没什么能做但我比谁都真城
泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到夜深

你知不知道你总有一种能可爱的独特
让我充满勇气抵抗冬天的寒冷
怎样做才会完美像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

不用等你开口先说我爱你(我爱你)
在那之前想对你说我愿意(我愿意)
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你(我爱你)
在那之后你点头说我愿意(我愿意)
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧

你知不知道我也有一种很可爱的天真
大男孩的口吻魅力加到一万分
怎样做才会完美像个男人(像个男人)
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

不用等你开口先说我爱你(我爱你)
在那之前想对你说我愿意(我愿意)
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你(我爱你)
在那之后你点头说我愿意(我愿意)
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧

虽然永远还不可能少了你的完整(少了你的完整)
两个对的人奇迹就能发生喔

不用等你开口先说我爱你(我爱你)
在那之前想对你说我愿意(我愿意)
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你(我爱你)
在那之后你点头说我愿意(我愿意)
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧这一刻只想把你抱紧

yup yup. this song wil be playing in my ipod this coming week. until i finish learning n get sick of the song..ahaha..

2009-03-05T22:03:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

ok! i'm back to blog! hahaha..

alrights. as i've said. prcp is over. cny is over. and off i went to taiwan !! was fun, n now i think i wanna marry a taiwanese. ahahhah..too many picture to post. so c it on facebook!!

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=65025&id=607830484
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=65031&id=607830484

the week i came back, cg multiplied too. we had the first multiplication at sentosa, telematch. so here's the picture. thanks to matthew. i think he's a great photographer! should ask him to help me out. take a nice picture of me to summit to cgh. i dowan an ugly picture to be hanging outside the cubical for the next 2yrs.
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=107995&id=692245995

i will miss the few i'm closer to..but we'll c each other in church..still can chill out together yeah? bubble tea outing! hehehe..

ok, i'm slacking now. gonna spend time to rest n really sleep. be charged up for work!!

=)

2009-02-05T17:20:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

its closed to about a month since my last entry.

i'm glad to say,

i've finished PRCP!! hehe. i'm one step away from being a REGISTERED NURSE. hehehehe..
the next time i'm in the ward, i will no longer be in the nyp uniform, no longer be wearing the name tag that says, "NYP Student Nurse". it will be the name tag saying "Staff Nurse"

3yrs just passed like that. before i even know it, i've completed polytechnic. am looking forward to doing my degree, going onto greater heights in this line. i hav my targets, i have my goals, dreams n vision. i will fufil it. was watching the sermon by pst tan jus now. its super good. it says, "seek the Lord in prayers, see the vision He has for me and participate n be part of it" i've seen bits n pieces of the plan He has for me. i'm not giving up. not to the very end i'm not giving up.

suddenly never go work ar, abit lost ar...suddenly nothin to do. surprisingly, there are days i wake up n wonder what shift am i, am i late anot, but actually there is no work..10weeks is going hard man..i'll proberly brush up on my pharmacology..oh well, i've been talkin about it the longest time ever but never really do anythin about it..i c le also wan sleep ar..proberly a trip to the lib tmr wil be good..

2009-01-10T12:10:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

got this from facebook. super funny man..

Ten reasons why you should date a nurse:
1) They can help you get over a hangover or sickness
2) Bedbaths!
3) The uniform
4) They are exposed to so many xrays, its like a form of birth control
5) You willl never need to buy condoms, paracetamol, toothbrushes or any hospital supplies
6) They know how to handle bodily fluids!
7) Nothing shocks a nurse, they have always seen smaller or indeed bigger!
8) They wont be disgusted by your toilet habits
9) They are experienced in manual evacuation when your full of crap
10)They know how to handle the human body!!!!!!!

You know you're a nurse if.....

• You believe that every patient needs tlc, diazepam,temazepam and haloperidol.
• You would like to meet the inventor of the Nurse call buzzer some night in a dark alley.
• You believe not all patients are annoying, some are unconscious.
• Your sense of humour gets more warped each year.
• You can only tell time by the 24 hr clock.
• Almost everything can seem humorous....eventually.
• When asked what colour that patients diarrheic was, you show them your Shoes.
• You know the smell of different diarrhoea to identify it.
• Every time you walk you make a jingling noise because of all the Scissors and clamps in your pocket.
• You can tell the pharmacist more about the medication they are dispensing than they know.
• You carry more "spare" meds in your pocket rather than waiting for pharmacy to deliver them.
• You refuse to watch ER because it is too much like the real thing and it triggers flashbacks.
• You check the caller id on your day off to see if anyone from the hospital is trying to call and ask you to work.
• You've been telling stories in a restaurant and made someone at another table throw up.
• notice that you are using more 4 letter words than you did before you started nursing.
• Everytime someone asks you for a pen you can find at least 4 of them on you.
• You can intubate your friends at parties.
• You don't get excited about blood unless it's your own.
• You live by the motto "to be right is only half the battle, to convince the doctor is more difficult"
• You've basted your thanksgiving turkey with a nasogastric syringe.
• You've told a confused patient that your name was that of your co-worker and to holler if they need help.
• Eating microwave popcorn out of a clean bedpan is perfectly normal.
• Your bladder can expand to the size of a Mack Truck's Radiator Sump.
• When checking the level of a patient’s orientation you aren't sure of the answer.
• You find yourself checking out other customers veins in grocery waiting lines.
• You can sleep soundly at the hospital cafeteria table on your dinner break and not be embarrassed when you wake up.
• You avoid unhealthy looking shoppers in the mall for fear that they will drop near you and you'll have to do cpr on your day off.
• You have ever referred to someone's death as a transfer to the "Eternal Care Unit".
• You have ever wanted to hold a seminar entitled "Suicide ... Doing It Right".
• You have ever had a patient look you straight in the eye and say "I have no idea how that got stuck in there".
• You have ever had to leave a patient's room before you begin to laugh uncontrollably.
• You throw a party for a co-worker and use a urinal (clean of course) as a lemon-aid pitcher and use a bed sheet for a tablecloth
• You believe that the government should require a permit to reproduce.
• You hate to get dressed in "real clothes" because scrubs are what you live in and why can't they make jeans that comfortable.
• You have ever restrained someone and it was not a sexual experience.
• Your most common assessment question is "what changed tonight to make it an emergency after 6 hours / days / weeks / months / years)?".
• You often stay awake for 24+ hrs at a time when you work nights realize you don't need alcohol or drugs to hallucinate just lack of sleep...
• You pull over in some parking lot after working nights because you are too tired to drive home and wake up to someone knocking on your window thinking you have had a stroke because you are passed out in your car and drooling.
• Your finger has gone places you never thought possible.
• You have seen more penises than any prostitute
• You disbelieve 90% of what you are told and 75% of what you see.
• You've sworn to have "Not For Resuss" tattooed on your chest.
• You threaten to strangle anyone who even starts to say the "q" word when it is even remotely calm.

Its just to help you understand our mindset and questionable mental status/sanity. Most of the time we function in spite of this sick sense of humour, fairly normally and very responsibly. Believe me, this is how we think, ALL THE TIME, Scary huh??

It must be added to the list that you hate flying just incase the air stewards announce "if there is a Doctor or Nurse on board... please make yourself known to the cabin crew" At which point you cringe and hide!

2009-01-04T21:47:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

In 2007, Singapore produced 558,900 tonnes of food waste, which can fill over 890 Olympic-sized swimming pools.

i am one guilty person who contributes. hah.

100tonnes of food waste can power more than 3,000 four-room HDB flats. so, 558,900tonnes of food waste can power close to 16,767,000 four room flats. hmm...

anyway, i heard this story on one of the reality show on cable.

the power of mindset.

a accused was detained by the police. the police wanted to find out from him about the illegal deals the clan was handling, but the accused refused to give any information. the inspector came to question him personally. yet to no avail. then the inspector blind fold the accused with a black cloth, took out a knife, and used the blunt side to slash on the accused throat. he then told the accused. "i've slashed your neck. if you do not seek medical advise in time, you will bleed to death." the accused, being stubborn, still refuse to cooperate. after a few hours, the accused died. the truth was, the inspector did not make any cut on him, neither was he bleeding. it was jus a action the inspector did. but in the accused mind, he thinks he is bleeding. that constant thought in his head "i'm bleeding, i'm dying soon". and eventually he died because his heart stopped pumping, with no medical reason to backup.

2008-12-26T20:39:00.003+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

i wore clothes for eeyor!! heh. its one of my top la. never wear alr. so let eeyor wear lor. hehe. cute eh?

yes, that's the huge eeyor i got for christmas. my new companion. last night ar...it fell off the bed. aha. cuz...i need space to sleep too..think i threw it down while sleeeping..

oh wells, but it got my entire bed while i was at work!!

nette!

are you some phychic or what.

you accurately guessed what i want for chirstmas.

or rather

what i need.

2008-12-25T22:42:00.000+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

i've got presents for christmas!!

the most interesting one is the huge eeyor.

haha.
will take its picture n post it online soon.

i have a new companion to sleep with tonight.

=)

2008-12-17T01:09:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

haven blogged for the longest time.
oh well. maybe not so long.

been workin n workin n workin.
yes. tired. but it've become a routine.
i will miss them actually.
jus like how my cute ah gongs will say
" v long never aee u alr! i miss you alot leh"
and my poor granny that cries whenver she sees me.
there is jus a special touch between the both of us though she doesnt talk to anyone else.

getting used to the workin environment.
the responsiblity of a staff nurse
the handling of many hr
the ward politics.
how to be friends with everyone. be it u like them anot.
knowing ur stand and not be push over yet at the same time, maintaining the friendliest side.
preparing myself for the next lap of life.
i am entering into society for real.

haven been taking pictures lately.
oh well
unless its pictures of me in uniform.
aha.
i think i look different everyday.
on bz days, i look like a mad woman. my pony tail not tight enough.
my hair wil be sweeping all over my uniform
that's the time i pray no lecturer or sister will walk in.
jus wanna faster finish my work, but of quality one.

on days when i have the time to sit down.
laugh.
my hair super neat. i can keep retieing one.
no problem man.
but...
nowadays v rare la..
alot of medical overflow cases..my goodness....
medical doctors are not exactly the best to work with. opps.

christmas is coming.

next yr will be a better yr.
i'm believing.

pls dun let my hope die out.

2008-11-30T23:18:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

我怕我失去我自己像摔壞的玩具　　該怎麼縫補空洞的眼睛　　想哭找不到理由哭呼吸已經麻痺　　一百個謊言是我的面具　　到底誰來救贖這封閉的世界我不想孤獨面對我自己　　救我脫離一切　　終於我找到了你就像一朵不凋零的花　　我的心像被你緊緊擁抱的小孩　　你就是愛永遠不會更改　　（完全明白你的真愛）　　終於我找到了你就像一朵不凋零的花　　讓過去從悲傷變成美麗的雲彩　　你就是愛永遠不會更改　　我終於找到你

i think.
its really meaningful.
watch the video if u can

http://www.walei.tw/program/action/show_article.php?article_no=2943&atitle=%A1i%A7%C6%B1%E6%A1j%A4%A3%AD%E4%B9s%AA%BA%AA%E1-%ABi%AE%F0%A4%A7%BAq

all of us have that one moment.
that moment of tears welling up in our eyes
and yet we can't find the reason to match our actions
we can't find the reason behind our tears.

2008-11-12T20:13:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

i don like wd 18 anymore!!!

nothing to do with the ward staff. they are nice people. the prcp students there are nice. the NP students are nice too..

jus that...

i think life is too boring like that. or manybe its jus the first week, doing junior work. but..
as compared to like WD35, WD47, i think its more challenging.

now i have to pray real hard. when i grad, they won throw me to some C class ward that is ultra bz.
i'll proberly die.
confirm.

and its ultra cold in wd 18. plus the untra limited workload. its even colder. =(

i miss my bz days...

2008-11-06T11:34:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

my goodness.
its 3days before PRCP!!

time really flies man.
i rmb thinkin about PRCP in yr1.
thinkin there is still a long way to go,
then in yr 2 when i met the then PRCP seniors
that i realise i'm a step closer to PRCP.
before i knew it,
i stepped into yr3.
6 months of academic.
6 months of no clinicals
man, i was super lost when i step into wd 35.
i rmb esther walkin up n down lookin for "parameter machine". ahahaha
and now,
its jus a few days before PRCP!
the next thing i know.
i will be changing into SN uniform overnight.

=(

i will make it thru!
favor, promotions, they are on their way!

2008-11-04T13:24:00.001+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

Do not assume that he who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His life may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remains far beyond yours. Were it otherwise, he would never have been able to find these words.

true, isn't it?

mayb i should jus be left alone.

2008-11-01T22:57:00.001+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

my building fund.
i dunno how.
but God.
i'm trusting You to provide for me.

i wan to see myself thru UOS bac of nursing
i wan to see myself thru SOT.

all things are possible to he who believes

2008-10-30T21:54:00.002+08:00

time will heal all wounds

jus thought its interesting to see how much i've changed, or rather, we've changed over the past 3 years.

1st yr! haha..freshies. this photo was the very first time i've ever worn my uniform. first time when we tried on, then we took this photo. second yr! if i'm not wrong, its taken in WD18. sheena and i. i'm gonna miss her plenty when i go 18 and she's in 38. but its ok. we're both bonded there. let's try to go ANE together! ahaha..if not, stil same level ma. both level 8, so its ok. can pop by n borrow things. =)
aha! taken on my birthday! if u can see the date below. ahaha..our last posting before PRCP.

know the difference?

as u advance in ur acad yr, frm yr 1 to y3 3, u wil go work earlier n earlier, end work later n later, n look more n more messier after work. ur work load gets heavier heavier, break time is less regular, much shorter. yr 1, yr 2, can 850 go wash hand, then slowly go sign out. now yr 3. 930 still passing report.

oh well. time really flies. 2 weeks before PRCP. i guess i'm at my last lap lo. hey guys, we've finally endured thru thr 3 yrs! before we even know it, we're going into prcp, and next, we are going to graduate, and change into our respective hosp uniform.

moving on frm student nurse, to staff nurse. both also SN. ahahaha

2008-10-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

thank you to the many wishes.
thank you.
too many to be named.

jus a few highlights. hahah

n408.
hey guys. thank you so much. its been a joy knowing u guys. n definately, your smses, facebook comments surprised me. i never knew u guys knows..haha..shang xuan, thank you. jia hui, thank you for rmb to wish me before u book in. ninin, cheryl, benny. thank you.

anthea.
thank you meimei. thank you for coming all the way down after my work. waited at the bus stop alone while i had to do OT. thank you. thank you for preparing the card. i know you've put in time n effort. thank you for going so far to get the cake. singing birthday song by the bus stop. thank you. =)

2008-10-21T15:50:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

power of confession!

ever since i went WD 18 for posting in yr2, i've been saying i wanna do my PRCP there.
guess what?

i really got it!
i'm gonna do my PRCP in WD18,
and most prob pass out there as SN.

hahaha..

to the many who know my inner desire
haha
or rather, heard my whinning before.
yes. i really got it.

WD 18 is a B2 class
aircon
rehabilitation ward
multi-disciplinary conference every wed
something joyce likes.

hahahahahaha..

thank You God
indeed U know what i really want
You've heard the little comments i've made.
You know what's the best for me.
=)

2008-10-19T20:57:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

joyce has an umbrella!

yeah. i finally bought an umbrella. the rainy season is coming soon. i dowan to risk myself falling ill at this time.

PRCP is approaching!!
10th november 2008

after 3 yrs of hard work.
this is my final lap to graduation. i must press thru. all my hard work, studying, projects, frustrations all ends with this PRCP. i am a successful person

joyce, nothin is impossible for you, because you have God in you!

feeling a little emotional nowadays. a hug from someone is enough to make me cry. dun ask me why. i can't tell u why too.

steph, evan, raisa. dun b shocked ok. i'm really ok. i know u guys are concerned when i cried on sat. but i'm really ok. someone hugged me n i cried. aha. its common la

jus happen to listen to this song.
a song i used to listen to v often in my younger days
a song that i've made as my prayer.
a song that lead me thru many dark days
a song that brought me closer to God.

there is a longing

only You can fill

a ranging temple

only You can still

my soul is thristy lord

to know You as i've known

drink frm the river

that flows before Your throne

take me deeper

deeper in love with You

Jesus hold me close in Your embrace

take me deeper

deeper than i've ever been before

i just wanna love You more and more

how i long to be deeper in love

sunrise to sunrise

i will seek Your face

form by the Spirit to the promise of Your grace

my heart is finding You

a hope that will abide

here in Your presence

forever satisfied

2008-10-08T00:41:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

finally! my goodness. my laptop died on me..that's why i've been missing from the "cyberworld" lol!

went out with ping n shell today.
i mus say, i really enjoy ur companion. hahaha..
talk, eat, shop.
do crazy things together.
its only with u guys that i'm like that

split personality?

hahahahaha..
nahx..
jus comfortable with u guys.
very.

i dunno how.
once geron starts,
once PRCP begins
the chance to meet up is really v difficult
we're on different shifts
weekends we have our own programs
family day.
but i'm sure.
if we make the effort to,
we will meet up and stil enjoy life
and i know we will.
=)

my dearest SAC clique.

we've all been bz, i've been tryin to keep my promise
to spend as much time as i can with u guys
i hope u feel it
once my attachment starts, its a little harder to get me out
as much as i can
i'll try.

i guess after these 3 yrs.
its only recently i got to catch up with u guys
know more abt u guys
know what's going on in ur lives.

sorry i wasn't there to listen to ur troubles
to give moral support.

jus wanna say. of the decisions u make, the things u do, i may not agree n give my full support, but i will respect ur decision. i may not respond to smses. sometimes i get too tired to even press buttons. but i do read ur smses.

joyce still cares for u.
genie, jess, cel, michelle,
joyce cares for u.

2008-09-30T19:00:00.003+08:00

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since its holidays, i'm suppost to really update..but there's nothin much i did thruout this holidays..hahaha

thank you korkor for the iphone. haha
*korkor is my cousin*

an unexpected gift.
but God is really good.
even before building funds starts
i'm already blessed.

i will build U a house.

watchin shows.
passing time
man. geron posting is coming. before i know it
its PRCP!!

joyce is entering the working society soon.

that's not good
not at all

=(

meanwhile,
i'm still a student!
not yet officially graduated ok

2008-09-25T12:15:00.000+08:00

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What Nihuiminjoyce Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-09-15T16:00:00.003+08:00

picture upload! of my sydney trip. here's some pictures..wanna see detailed album of my trip. look for me n i'll be glad to share with u..=)

we went this place to do sand toboggan. sliding down on board frm 3 storey high of sand..
look at my tummy. time to lose weight!!!
i like this picture. taken on the cruise we took to go out into the sea to see dolphins..

taken at sydney airport while waitin to board the flight back

oh. this picture has a story to it. taken by a passerby frm taiwan. prob he's also a tourist. guess what, after helpin us, he shun bian used his camera to take a picture of us. bian tai!! stil say "xin jia do de meimei hao piao liang o"
university of sydney
olivia and me! oh man..i really miss her..but i'm glad to be able to meet up with her almost everyday to chat n shop.
we all looked so prim n proper. with mr chan chee beng
aust food is too expensive...so..we resorted to maggie! hahah..bought from a local korean shop.

taken at the royal botanical garden, the only place u can take a picture of sydney tower and sydney opera house together.
haha.i look funny. look at my hands..
of the entire trip. i like this photo the most.

haha..i was tryin to touch the star fish. was so scared. tryin do hard to overcome my fear of it. cuz i thot its soft. but i stil summon my courage to touch the star fish..lol..n its hard like rock, not soft n slimy...

that's all..=)

2008-09-15T16:00:00.002+08:00

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i'm back! time flies. before i knew it, i was on the plane to aust. and now, i'm back frm sydney!

for those who didn't know i was overseas, that really showed how much u know about me.

anyways. i took about 180 pictures. so, i can't possibly post them all here. if anyone is interested, u can ask me for the album n i'll show u. otherwise, i'll jus post some pictures soon. not now. i'l still v tired. wanna sleep soon..hahaha...

2008-09-06T13:53:00.002+08:00

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yay! finally! i've survived thru OT posting. time passes really slow there. the only time that time passes so fast is durin break when we're all cuddling together in the change room to sleep. in one union sia.

one bench, 5 heads lying on it. haha.. and of course, everyone changing together, stripping together...

went to buy mooncake. oh well. mooncakes are so so so expensive. but thank God, its once a year..

yes guys. i'm going overseas..will update pictures when i'm back.

no cherlyn, cher cher. i'm not marrying overseas. hah. mommy wouldn't like that..

2008-08-29T23:45:00.002+08:00

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finally! i've finished one week of posting at A&E. taxing one week. esp thurs. but God is good la..

guess what's the taboo.
i wanted to blog that, i'm v fortunate. cuz everytime my shift very slack one. nothing much. but its a taboo to say that in A&E. cuz once u make such a comment. almost immediately, crowd will flood in. haha..

but today quite eventful. mornin not so bad, this ultra nice SSN bring us ard to teach us on airway chunk and sign for us. and he's v nice. i'm the only fortunate one in my shift that's given a chance to admit pt into resus and write report independently.

i can't say it here. but i met something v v ying xiang shen ke today. ahaha..i think the rest also v ying xiang she ke. i will never forget that sight.

daddy mommy. i promise i won do something like this. i can almost imagine mommy's reaction if it happens. wo bu hui hen xing rang ni shang xin

2008-08-28T19:50:00.002+08:00

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blogging. again..hahaha..

apple strudel for second break,
strawberry strudel for dinner..ahahaha..

addicted to strudel.
more and more
and more and more

lol.
one more day in ED.
quick quick past.
ahaha.

i'm bored.

2008-08-26T22:16:00.002+08:00

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haha..been having the time to blog..cuz i'm on pm shift today n tmr..aaha...BUT..need to do case study lorx! sian..

blog a short entry then go do work le..

aneway..i really like the room 5 doc..he so funny la..never fail to make us laugh.l.really one of those that will talk to students, give chance for us to learn, and entertain us..

jus like when we were in ane ot. super funny. got me, fareed n xingjuan. n another en. my turn to assist ma. then i blur blur one..when givin the lignocaine, not experienced, never open properly..then he super RA.

" mab**, ur student first time arx. hole so small, how to go in? first time never tear properly arx? "

super A right!! got some other jokes la..the patient in pain i think she also laughin lorx..laugh until i no strength..then i still watch him stitch until so happy, never cut the thread for him..

but he's nice la..at least he will console me when i had to work with so fierce SSN. the other one also v nice..ytd he in room 3, today in room 6. i think he's related to pst cuz they have the same surname! ahaha...those are the 2 nice one la..

but there's one. jus this one who has a face as long as i dunno what..super unfriendly n cranky..but nvm..its only a week and its alrd 2 days down!!! but next 3 days won be nice. esp in thurs n fri..and i'm on AM shift those 2 days..crap..

ok la..gotta do case lo..cuz i'm v v tired too..too long never go for attachment..tiring seh..how is prcp gonna be like??!!

2008-08-24T21:58:00.000+08:00

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i'm slacking like never before
refusing to think about what chengjun said
"welcome to the working world"
that's scary ok

gonna take up new courses
gonna learn new things
so look out!
hahaha

2008-08-22T11:16:00.002+08:00

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EXAMS OVER!!!

for al those still surviving thru their papers, jia you!!! ahahahaha..no more lack of sleep, no more "haven flip finish, how arx?" no more guess what will come out..yeah!!

ahaha..i sound a little silly..a little to hardworking..but i try ok! i even take lecture notes n walk round the "garden" at marina square tryin v v hard to rmb about demetitis for HS 3033. ahaha..thou i still didn't rmb much..

an overview of how my exams were..

1) HS 3107 (social psych + socio of family + socio of work)

really really thank God. socio of work i only attended one lecture. the 2 tested chapters i dun even recall anything..jus randomly pick some slides n study, and it came out!! for 6m essay..thank God. thankg God for really good memory to rmb the theories n all..i suddenly rmb about dissonance theory when i was jus about to enter the exam hall, then i took my book out to flip, guess what, it came out for essay, 10marks lehx..not kidding..family of socio also not bad, came out on why ppl stay in abusive family..i think out of 4, i did the best for this paper. =) definately thankin mommy for spendin the time to teach me in yr 1 to set my foundation for psych right. she taught me how to relate the theories to myself, the ppl ard me to understand n rmb the theories.

*i do bring the highlighters (my reward for doin well in psych in yr 1) whenever i have exams! *

2) HS 3033

this one much harder. hahaha..actually, i dun rmb what came out le..but this module was taugh early..like by june alr finish teachin..studyin for it was tough..cuz cannot really rmb about it..thou ms tong n norian did a good job in teachin la..n the consolidation notes that were given..but i really didn't have time to finish remembering everythin..jus kinda flip thru n do..i cannot even rmb what came out for essay..ahaha..i think it came out in head injury, purpose and counting of swabs n sponge used in OT, and i rmb!!it came out on amputation. and burns i think. i know got 5 SAQ.

3) HS 3106

this one is difficult. other then elderly, everythin eles was hard!! 5 essays, really can do de only one (management of pain in cancer) the others like anyhow lehx..come what neurogenic shock (i know its that shock cuz gor one mcq mus choose is what shock, then got 4 kinda shocks there, jus pick one), elderly abuse (i jus flipped thru that lect n it didn't even talk about management) and one more.. i think its management of PEA..i cannot rmb the last one..i crap thru the management one..i think the last one is management of head injury. but the mcq not bad..got elderly n onco..its the critical care that kills..

4) HS 3034.

disaster! this is the module that i got warnin letter for..never really attended this module, even if i did, i'm either not concentrating, or sleepi, or talkin..ahaha..when come to studyin, even worse..dunno where to start from..the best part, i was there for consolidation lectures, BUT!! the cher give the conso, every lecture is impt...literately u jus have to study everything..like SO helpful right..i try my best alr..4 essays, each one is work 12 / 13 marks lehx! can die one..ping n i were jus talkin about it at the swimming pool area..really, thank God, He brought to my mind this topic on the 5 A of smoking, and power & authority. i was still reciting the 5 As to ping at the swimmin pools area n again to shell before we went in. thank God. it came out for essay..but the other 2 essay quite hard.. came out on preceptorship!! believe it a not, we dun even have lecture on that la! its ICA presentation. even the group that presentated also cannot rmb what they presented. the last one i think it was on BMI.

i brought my calculator!! but its the wrong one..i brough the one w/o the authorize sticker..then..cannot use..77 divide by 1.6 times 1.6 . i did my step by step working on..thank God i still rmb my maths..i got the correct answer of 30.07.ahahah...my maths not bad one ok..lol!

thank God its over!

its time to play! like what mommy say, "go enjoy urself" ahaha..but its attachment on monday..nvm..brandon n i will go gymming..time to lose all the weight i've put on durin the semester...ahah..i wanna lose weight!! for all the carb n rice i've taken..later cannot fit into my clothes le how..

mon gg A&E. the past few time n experiences there is as a visitor, a patient..tis time is as a nurse. a student..i wonder how it'l be like..than God i got sheena with me..ahaha..pray pray pray sheena n i same ward same shifts for PRCP..ahaa..best if after we grad stil can work same ward...i really enjoy workin with her...now that ci-en went over to heart centre..haiyer..one lesser zhi ji to eat tom yum ban mian..ahaha..persuade sheena to eat that with me is v v hard one lorx..

i'm thinkin..what i wanna go durin my holidays..

2008-08-16T13:43:00.002+08:00

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jus thought of this song..n decided to listen to it..well..lookin at the lyrics..speaks alot..

你小心翼翼牵我手
其实是担忧藏不住我
自尊也投降活在她之下
我好傻

你字字句句说你不爱她
那又是什么让你害怕
我疑惑但是原谅因为你留下
我好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在让我更寂寞

你寸步不离像天使的她
挥霍我的爱从不放心上
我有一丝无奈也有一些明白
该放开

不是我
不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱
感觉到什么

不爱我别再说假装爱那是撒盐在伤口
啊... 谁说我不在意空等候
原来你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受

呜... ...

你没想像中爱我

i never really looked at this lyrics before.
i only listened cuz the tune is nice
i used to think its like some love song, how one person loved another so much.
but lookin at the lyrics, it speaks other wise.

to the many out there.
people who are still bei qing shuo kun
people who are struggling, "should i or should i not?"
what's the reason that's keepin you from holding onto the relationship
what's the reason that stops you from makin an end?
is it really love?
or is it that you're afraid?

i asked someone, "what is love?"
and she answered, " love means unconditional acceptance and perferential treatment"

perferential means assuming a real or imagined "choice" between alternatives and the possibility of rank ordering of these alternatives, based on happiness, satisfaction, enjoyment, they provide. it can be seen as a source of motivation.

powerful defination..and that person lived it out. upon replyin my question. she've never failed to demostrate that to me.

i'm moving onto the next phase of life.
i'm growin up.
zhang da le, yao xue hui kao zi ji.
bu shi mei yi jian shi duo yao you ren bang mang.
wo zhi dao ni yi ding hui zai shen pang gu li wo, fu chi wo.
maturity comes with independence
not jus in the mandane things
but in thoughts, actions, decisions.

wo hui hao hao guo.

2008-08-14T20:26:00.002+08:00

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one paper down.

not bad la this paper. thou i've only been to ONE cleamus lecture. but his 6 marks at least can do..i jus vomit out whatever i've read thru in the lecure notes. studyin with shen does help a little..

its either the coffee at starbucks, the carrot cake at geylang market, or the sushi at sakae. either one that made me suffer till now.

been having uncomfortable pain. somethin like gastric. not so intense, but jus uncomfortable pain that stings. oh well, it might jus be gastrics. pain until cannot sleep..been having this "nausea effect" the whole day. purposely finish paper early, faster shade cuz i really wanted to puke alr. regretted not droppin by to buy sweets n bring in..

came back, slept a while. still havin the pain n the stupid nausea effect..pls pls pls..this is not the time to fall sick..not now..at least after the aust study trip.

God, preserve me thru.

how..i wanna go for mornin pm tmr. alr quite disappointed in myself that this mornin never go lehx..argh!! dun care..i'll sleep at 10 tonight. aha.

3 more papers to go, 6 more books to study. that's alot. alot. one HS 3033 can kill alr. still got geron, onco, critical care, community health, management.how..best part. consolidation ecture for community health n management. ALL IS IMPT. what kind of consolidation lorx..like that isn't it the same as all also mus study?

other than anti-ematics, any other way to crub the nausea. its killin me..

2008-08-10T00:26:00.003+08:00

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oh wells..how can i miss up in picture updates?!

my FYP. haha..i think the cutest is those powerpuffs la..but still..its our hard work ok..
the sense n sexuality CD by ping..thanks alot..thanks for sharing my burden n volunteering to help me do up the CD. to the extend the CD cover was designed by her!!

and yes..this book was done by me..from the binding of the book, to the printin n pasting of those life testimonies inside...turmoil sorting those testimonies out ok! for someone who has poor english..

and yes! these cakes made me happy..but..i didn't eat..
cute eh?!

hah! "da jia hao! wo men shi DAN SHEN GUI ZU! " lol..
from left to right. me, michelle, ping, huizhen, ni yuan..we were at NUH mass causualty..lol..abit late to post it now thou..

i wonder when's the next photo updates..

2008-08-08T22:37:00.002+08:00

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today marks the last day of school.
poly life.

ahah.

no more
-8am tutorials
-8am clinical labs
-ICA presentations
-tutorial assignments
-theory tests
-library meetings
-printing notes in RBC
-burning time at CMS
-3h breaks at AMK hub
-runnin away frm LJT
-tappin of lanyard
-"tie ur hair n wear ur lanyard
-sleepin during lectures
-brainstormin what to eat durin break
-group meetin at pasir ris lib on sun 1pm
-scary clinical skill competency exam
-slackin in LT waitin for lect to start
-bargainin for cher to release us earlier
-singing songs along the alles while waitin for lab/tutorial

oh wells, guess i'll miss poly life a little thou.

well, my next target.

Bachelor of Nursing (Post-Registration) - Part-time/Full-time
awarded by The University of Sydney and accredited by Singapore Nursing Board

i'll save, and save, and save. cuz....est. sch fees is 24k. how on earth to pay 24k man?! oh wells, but its written

Admission Criteria

Applicants for admission as candidates for the Bachelor of Nursing (Post-registration) shall hold :

Diploma in Nursing from Nanyang Polytechnic or Ngee Ann Polytechnic Singapore or an approved institution

or

Certificate in Nursing from the Singapore School of Nursing or its equivalent

and

have a minimum of 12 months' clinical nursing practice
be employed as a registered nurse in an appropriate professional working environment acceptable to the University

so i have min 12 month to save that 24k..i wonder how..i dowan to wait til i'm old then study..

still my target. to be a lecturer by 24yrs old..

=)

2008-08-03T21:02:00.002+08:00

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abit belated but.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHENGJUN!

thank you thank you. thank you for lookin out for me, for my safety all the time. you're much appreciated. the rest, its in the magazine. hah.

2 days of FOP kills man..going FOP, rushin back to sleep n wake up early mornin to fix the silly office to get my ICA done. thank God, its the last ICA. finally!

9 more days of sch
5 sch days
4 exam days

mon - ICA presentation
tue - OT breifing
wed - lab + nursing proj product presentation
thurs - lab + wee+abdy conso lectures + class celebration
fri - lab

joyce, you've got to start studying soon! hahahahahahahahahaha..

alright. i'm gonna post my exam dates here, so u guys can keep me in prayer!

Name : NI HUIMIN, JOYCE Course : DIPLOMA IN NURSING (HSDF01) Examination Timetable - Academic Year 2008/2009 Semester 1

14-AUG-08 (THU)
12:30PM - 02:30PM
HS3107
BEHAVIOURAL SCIENCE 3
G.221 (Z1)
138

19-AUG-08 (TUE)
09:00AM - 11:00AM
HS3033
NURSING SCIENCE IIIB
G.221 (Z1)
137

20-AUG-08 (WED)
09:00AM - 11:00AM
HS3106
NURSING SCIENCE 3A
G.221 (Z2)
136

21-AUG-08 (THU)
12:30PM - 02:30PM
HS3034
NURSING SCIENCE IIIC
G.221 (Z2)
137

oh wells..i dun quite feel the heat thou ppl ard me are studyin alr. hah. joyce, joyce, be more urgent about your studies lehx!!!

i feel stuck in my system man..like got blocked nose..throat also stuck stuck...argh! not exactly a nice feelin..

n i almost killed myself with chocolates.

hah!

2008-07-26T23:24:00.002+08:00

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an impt person sms me today. am encouraged by what she said.

(.....) it says, if you've had unfair things happen to you, or people have robbed or cheated you, e bible says, God will bring you out with twice what you had before. if you are struggling through tough times, start declaring "i'm comin out of this experience with twice the joy, twoce the peace, twice the honor, twice the promotion" everyday when you get up, declare "this is going to be a day of victory in my life. i'm expecting God's unprecedented favor. promotion, favor, increase, they're all on the way"

i'm encouraged! thank you. thank you for remembering me. i will put this up on my mirror with my to-do list. every mornin i will make it a point to read out loud to myself.

to all who sms-ed me the past week,

jus wanna say, i'm really ok. looked a little white, a little pale cuz i didn't have enough sleep that day, was up early in the mornin at NUH. i'm ok. really fine. jus a little tired, drained out. so, fang xin alright.

one more month is campus. then i'm out. 3 yrs of poly ends jus like that..but i'm glad..i didn't waste my life away like how i did in secondary sch..at least i feel i've accomplished something, i've done something..i've acquired knowledge..from someone that only has basic first aid skills, to someone who is soon to be qualifed and considered as an offical healthcare worker.

i'm one step closer to my dream n vision.

2008-07-18T21:07:00.003+08:00

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hey hey! final yr. took picture today..ahaha..ppl, u can get the pictures frm me or haslinda..didn't post the entire class one cuz its kinda blur..we'll go some editing first..

this is subgroup 3. fareed, huan huan, lifang, sarina, huanying

this is my subgroup. subgroup one. the group that is known for its efficiency..ahaha..oh wells..that's me praising my own group..of course! i'm the subgroup leader lehx..mus be proud of my own group seh..from left. yvonne, joyce, michelle, huiping. my comedy buddy 1 and 2
hah..combine subgroup..combine 2 and 4. frm left to right. last row to first row. yujie, ruba, farhana, haslinda, evelyn, yuan yuan, wani, huizhen, lyn.
last but not least. leader n assistant leader..hahaha...n half of yujie behind us..lol..i look spactic..hair too flat!!

2008-07-17T12:33:00.002+08:00

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endurence.
joyce, you can do it.
its another 5 weeks.

i'm tired.
very very tired.
no amount of sleep seem enough.

after my exams.
i wanna shop
i wanna do alot alot of things.

i wanna go holiday.

take a break
love myself

life is sad enough.
not loving myself makes it even sadder.

i read an sms i kept in my phone for a long long time
"Joyce, you;re much nicer when you're not moody. will you not be moody to me?"

someone told me this.
"you will be willing when you see how much others will miss out because your obedience. thousands of souls."

will i be willing? willing to let go?
God, what's in my future?
not walking purposeless
but God, its a struggle to go the extra mile
do extra things
refining myself, cultivating the fruits..

stretched
feeling very stretched

i need to expand my capacity

2008-07-14T10:58:00.006+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

learnt a new worship song in church this week.
it really caught my heart.

here's the lyrics.

mercies that rise with the new morn

set me apart as a new born

each moment i live

by faith i believe

with You i'm never alone

darkness may come

trials seems so long

You are the light i depend on

through valleys and storm

Your Word keeps me strong

my shelter, refuge and song

i trust in You

Everyday i live

i know You are my God

i lift my face and look to You my God

even when the mountains tremble and a thousand fall

i will stand with You

my Jesus take my all

it speaks alot to me. time flies, this is my fifth yr as a christian. it does get a little dry. i'm a little more matured in the Lord, able to give some advices to the younger ones..my words has to tally with my actions..many a times i always encourage them to press on in this race with God. to depend on God..but deep down in my own heart, my own walk with God..its a little dry..i've learnt many things in church, thru services, cg, bible studies..even to learn n give bible studies..but sometimes i do feel something is missing..but i can't figure out what is that something..

like what lorraine says, God place leaders above us for a reason. zuzhang answered my question. the something missing - the basics. the basic things i have to get right. the basics of praying and coming to God like a child yearning to spend time with her Abba Father. not jus praying for the needs in my life, prayin for the ppl ard me, praying for breakthru, prayer desires, but wanting to spend time with God..jus purely spend time with Him n not wanting anything eles but His embrace.

i need to get my life back right with God. the fire n desire i had when i was a young believer. that pure thought and child like faith. jus like what pst preached this week. You are the King of kings, i am Your child. i will treat myself right. have the right mindset of myself.

its a new start. a new beginning.

i will stand with You, my Jesus take my all.

2008-07-13T01:06:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

i'm busy.
hah.

4 times this week i was in town.
go into the same shop like 4 times a week la.

oh wells

but i did enjoyed myself.
with different ppl
but i'm glad i made the choice to meet u guys

thou i really felt like sendin a last min sms to back out

been fallin asleep in class.
can't sleep at night.
its not a nice feeling.
turn n turn.
look at the clock, alr 3 plus.
8am class means waking up at 6am for sch

next week got,
HPP plan ICA (HS 3034)
clinical skills test (round 1)
clinical theory exam (HS 3041)

the week after got somemore things la..
but off hand i cannot remember much.

semesteral exams starts on the 14th Aug.

get over n done with it.
its my last chance to brush up my GPA.
oh wells.

i'll be a good girl next week
n stay home more often.

proj meetin tmr
or rather 12h later.

hah.

2008-07-03T15:04:00.000+08:00

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oh wells. i haven blogged for a long time thou i'm like always online. or rather. everyday u'll see me online.

do visit my blogshop at http://simplicity-ingenueous.blogspot.com. haha. u'll be greatly appreciated. =)

sch's gonna be bz the next few wekks..then its semesteral exams..i may be hard to get for the next few weeks..but i promise i'll respond to sms-es n if i can, phone calls. sms is a guarantee that i'll reply ya..joyce won go missing..=)

i'm gonna whine again..haha..mommy! bring me out to eat nice food!! =)

2008-06-21T22:10:00.001+08:00

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2008-06-17T14:43:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

7.30am prayer meetin at jurong west st 91.
waking up at 5.15am
leaving the house by 6.10am

discipline
it takes alot of discipline

i'll press on.
cruxify my flesh.

shop
shop
shop.

ping, shell, i'm waitin for u to shop with me!! haha..share my burden lehx..=)

project meetin tmr..
chiong arx!!!!!

group 1 is well known for efficiency isn't it?
hahaha...

2008-06-15T14:17:00.003+08:00

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picture of the NEOs camp campfire..prepared by zuzhang n nette..not really v clear thou..didn't had the chance to take a few more pictures..

little shirin's hand!!!so small right..she can't even grab my little pinky lehz..she's so so small...and i really do enjoy disturbing her..haha..esp when she's sleeping..opps..i know deb doesn't read my blog..ahaha..

and yes, the nydc cakes..the one on top is xue's n mine cake..the cheesecake is hers, the sponge cake is mine..the one below is hers after shifu added the maple syrup...

i should have taken a picture of my cake after shifu added all the syrup in..wa..the entire cake changed color immediately la..the sponge cake was soaked in black colored syrup..

this comin week is the last week of the 21days of prayer. SOT n staff are having mornin prayer devotion at jw frm 7.30am -8.30am..i'm gonna discipline myself to go for it. its super early n its at jurong west. but i know my life wil be blessed. oh. fri got overnight prayer meeting..

i finally had the courage to give zuzhang the gift personally.

dun have to hide in his bag anymore

thou he was shocked

but its good..right?

mommy said it was good too!

i'm gonna treasure this r/s i have with u

daddy, mommy

i love you

2008-06-14T13:37:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

i said i'll update ytd..but after watchin the last ep. of the hk show, wanted to pray n sleep.
but arx. due to the sugar rush.
hard la..

then shifu sms me askin for blog url.
talk to him until 3 plus lorx.
n i assumed he fell asleep first.

sugar rush?

let's start from beginnin.

thanks for comin for CIC with me
i do hope u've learnt something
n u'll stay

thanks for the NYDC treat..

well the meal was nice.
n seriously
i looked forward to the cakes lehx.

ok la.
quite nice.
then shifu was toppin up the caramel ( or was it maple syrup)
for xue's cheesecake.
then i said "eat here lehx"
cuz my cake was stil huge.
if they dun help,
no way i can finish it la
the
he heard wrongly!!
he poured the remaining
which was half of the mini jar of the sugar syrup on my cake!!
n it was sponge cake!!
ultra ultra sweet la!
the cake originally is sweet,
has choco bits
and vanilla ice cream.
with the additional abundance of sugar syrup
wa..cannot make it sia.
after that we were all so high
well,
only me n shifu
xue didnt really eat the cake.
she was focusing on her cheesecake
laughin at my sponge cake
oh wells

i guess that's what happens when we're together
kinda reminded me of the swiss bake days
when we do all kind of stupid things
let's not say it here.
really lame lame lame kinda things man

thank God
i never had to be trapped in the oven.

opps.
haha..

father's day is this week.
i haven been good
i've made u angry
this nottie gal never had the courage to say
"sorry" to you face to face
but stil.
thank you. thank you for loving me like ur own
you're my superdaddy!

2008-06-09T20:37:00.001+08:00

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i'm back from camp. i'm tired, but i'll say, i've enjoyed myself. ha.

i've put my ur 2 skills into use man. all the dressing skills, wound care skills all came into good use. n thank God! that lecture about fits, i wasn't sleeping. i actually listened n pay good attention n therefore it came into good use! and, the one about GCS. ahaha. yes, i'll try as much as i can to stay awake during lectures n not fall asleep. hahaha..

update some other time.

take care people.

2008-06-07T00:04:00.002+08:00

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holidays!!
like finally larx...

at least a short break frm al the "wierd" lecturers
the tension in the class

haiyer.
had been fallin asleep in class unknowingly these few days.
can't seem to battle sleepiness.
its not good
having the middle of the lecture slides empty
not able to catch notes cher says.
didn't get frm ping to copy
she played her part to pay attention n listen
its not fair to her if i get what she put in effort into.

camp NEOS!
the nest 3 days is gonna be life changing.

i'm glad n i'm glad
shifu is coming!!!

2008-06-02T17:59:00.002+08:00

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heard this song on my ipod on the way to school.
the arise and build song for 2007.

suddenly it made sense to me.
God is not looking at just my finances.
He's looking straight into my heart.
the heart i use to care for people,
the heart that tells my hands what to do.

i won deny it.
i'm a little tired.
when breakthrus doesn't come
when i keep going in circles about the same issues
its tiring
very tiring

POURING OUT THIS TREASURE YOU GAVE

IN YOUR PROMISES,OUR HEARTS TURN BRAVE

I WILL ARISE AND LAY DOWN THIS SACRIFICE

AS WE'RE BUILDING YOUR HOUSE ON HIGH

i wil remember this song.
i wil arise and build Your church.
i wil remember Your promises.
i wil stand firm
my heart is protected by Your words
nothing belongs to be
i owned it because You've given it to me
my life is Yours.

2008-06-01T18:15:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

don talk to me
i'm moody
if u c me in sch n i'm quiet

jus leave me.
don do stupid things
don play jokes on me
i may jus explode

did somethin stupid
ruin a relationship i treasure

it always happens
i need more wisdom.

2008-05-28T13:41:00.003+08:00

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i'm on mc today!

haha..whatever la..gotta make up lorx..i dowan to make up clinical..i dowan i dowan..haiyer..
hopefully caroline wil be nice n dun let me make up..

oh!! i passed my napfa! not only pass k..got silver lorx..got standard one ok..haha

but arx..after that..ache until siao..now stil aching can..stil haven regain the energy i used for napfa..gonna go back to sleep later..

anyway..someone spam my blog..thou i have a feeling its the same person..its so contridicing..the way the person typed is exactly the same..but..who cares man..changed a new tag board..anyway, i wil not be using "joy" to tag le..i'll use my chi name..in case the person spam using my name again..so ppl, take note alright..

this week hectic sia..

mon - napfa
- hs 3034 ICA presentation
- movie! (made of honor) with hock n pj

tue - hs 3033 ICA presentation
- dinner! with xue n shifu (thanks for the treat!)

and i'll update the rest soon..haha..gonna rain le..i wanna sleep soon too..aha..

God is good all the time, all the time, God is good.
believing in You. i'll emerge victoriously.
You'll guide me thru.
i'll walk this narrow way with You.

2008-05-18T22:15:00.002+08:00

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projects
projects
and more projects

thanks genie.
the cookie came jus in time.
esp when this week, everything is so tight.
3 major assignments, 2 tutorials to hand up.

it meant alot to me.
at least i know someone out there rmbs me.

thanks brandon
thanks ah hock.
thou i was the only "flower"
but i enjoyed myself.
hearing what guys do to improve their status,
to move one step closer to being an alpha male.

LOL!

oh. n i finally did cut my hair.
it feels better
cuz its not so thick
not so warm
but arx..
uncle cut my fringe a little too short
tie-ing my hair
clippin up the fringe is a little problem

but nvm la
now also no attachments.

wait till attachments le then say.
ha.

i'm so fortunate.
to the other people that's doing HS3053
i dun have to search for article!!
becuz i have a mommy who's a teacher.
n she has a whole collections of related articles!!
PTL!

2008-05-14T20:46:00.003+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

jus a short entry.

yes, the pertainin to the previous post, things are cleared up alr. God indeed is my judge. i dunno if its co-incidence or God incidence, people who do me wrong are recieving their retribution. isn't it?

next 3 weeks is gonna be v packed. alot of work to do, n i'm feelin the stress..having to complete assignments after assignments..with the wierd weather, its not helping much either..a while so cold, a while so hot..

came back ard 11 plus last night..had terrible headache..guess what, the one who always has alot of medications cannot even find one panadol to take..was having headache, searched the entire house, found a strip of panadol, but its expired in feb 2008. said my prayers n tried to sleep.

was plannin to read the journal n get it done today. doubt i'll do so..feelin sick..cannot dao at this time..wrong timing..jus have to cheng until term break..

if anyone wants to bless me with anything, here's the list of things i need

-umbrella (small, portable, light)
-watch ( is possible, the one i really like)
-panadol
-vit c
-wallet
-prob, a bigger pencil case.

that's all for now i guess..

gonna read thru the article before i sleep.

nitex ppl.

2008-04-30T20:28:00.002+08:00

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i'm frustrated. i really am.

i can't say it now.

but i know my name wil be cleared.

God is my Judge.

2008-04-24T21:02:00.002+08:00

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week 2 of school. i'm extremely tired. by wed, all my energy level is low.

had v bad gastric.
was throwin up badly this mornin.
couldn't go for socio lect.

*sheena, i was sick. not that i go for andy's lecture, never go for clemaus lect ok. i not bias de horx*

didn't had appetite to eat.

oh ya!! ping bought me cha ye dan eh!! wa, super happy sia..thou it was quite torturous to eat. those of you who get gastric wil know what i mean. when u're in pain, u eat, u're in even more pain. but nevertheless. thanks ping, thanks shell for wanting to buy me polar cake.

cannot stand that tong tong tong tong and the tang tang tang tang..life is difficult with them around..

guess i wanna rest. stil in pain.

wil update more again.

lectures had been quite interesting, thou its taxing n require alot of concentration, but sitting with ping n shell, everyday is like watchin a comedy. never ending laughter of weird things..and often, at the most random moment..

get well soon mommy.

2008-04-21T12:23:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

all the birthdays..

happy birthday yuexin!!
- 16th April

yuexin, you're not forgotten. thou u're a little far away, but you've never failed to show me ur love n concern for me thru the sms-es..even thou our time is different, but you'll still respond to my smses when its late into the night for u..thank you..=) i miss you yuexin!

happy birthday ah boy! (rainft)
- 17th April

boy arx! haha..got to know u a little more cuz of UGT..thou sometimes i really cannot tahan ur cold jokes, but one thing, you wil try as much as u can to avail urself to help someone who's in need..jus wanna say, continue runin after ur dreams..God wil not shortchange you.

happy birthday rita!
- 18th April

hello! thou i dunno if u wil ever read tis..but jus wanna wish u happy birthday! thou we only spent like 3 days together, but i've really enjoyed myself, shoppin with u, walkin ard lookin for nice food, u n ur mee pok..i miss you! come back soon alrites? =)

happy birthday alice!
- 20th April

guess u were quite shocked that i rmb ur birthday cuz u did reply to my greeting sms..yes, i remember..jus wanna say, this frenship is built upon the two of us, i'm not treatin u esp, well cuz of xin, but its becuz u're a close friend to me..let's meet up soon ok? =)

happy birthday ben song!
- 20th April

boss! u also quite shocked i rmb to wish u right..cuz u replied me too! haha..i only got to know u thru UGT, before that i only knew u was frm tp..that's all...jus wanna say thanks, thru out the UGT practices, you've really taken care of us, esp the sisters. sorry i couldn't really commit to the rehearsals, but u've been understanding, askin me if i'm alright..you're greatly appreciated! rmb, u are yandao 101, not sisi 101! LOL! =)

2008-04-15T12:02:00.003+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

in sch.
shs-cms.

oh man.
8am class is ....... bad.

2 days in a row
reachin sch at 745, waking up at 545am.

its been a long time since i had to wake up at such ungodly hour n go sch,
squeezing at the bus stop with all the sec n pri sch kidz..
its nt fun doing that man..

my head feels heavy.
after this gt lect,tut, lect.

chers speaks in parables
or in alien language

understanding them require skills.

skills.
operating theatre training.
lesson 1. learnin how to scrub ur hands.
each finger has to be divided into 6 planes,
each planes needs to be scrubed 30 times with the brush
so each finger takes about 180 scrubs to ensure it takes away all mircoorganism.
5 fingers = 900 times
forearm x 6 planes = 30 x 6
= 180 times
5cm above elbow x 6 planes = 30 x 6
= 180 times
elbow 30 times

in total u need so scrub one hand 1290 times to get rid of all microorganisms

after scrubbing, its ultra clean, ultra smooth, ultra red n ultra pain.

its a torture how u wanna sleep so badly.
but ur body clock doesn't adjust to the time.

2008-04-13T14:19:00.002+08:00

time will heal all w0unds

clear dust!

alrights! school starts tmr..n oh man..most of the lessons starts at 8am..mean i have to be up by 5am to prepare for school!!!

pst says 6h is the ideal amount of sleep an average person should have.

means i have to sleep lastest by 11am to have 6h of sleep before i get up at 5am for school lehx..oh man..its been a long time since i last slept at 11pm..i wonder how..

so fast..frm tmr on i'll be yr3 le..its was like jus last month i was a yr1, freshman, but now, yr3 lo..

and, the exciting thing is, this sem got no bio!!!no need scared prac cannot pass lo.no more memorising of boring bio stuff..lol..

guess i'll be gg down suntec office quite often frm now on..haha..wenkai promised not to put my picture on the office door with an X sign..lol! internal joke la..not many wil understand..